Update update

It's been almost a month since my last post... wow.. time really flies... okie.. there are like LOADS of things to update..

i finished my exams on sat.. and went to Zoukout.. my 1st Zoukout party.. went with Cherie n Brien n Cutlin.. met somemore of Brien's frens there.. it was not too bad... feet was really tired.. 7hrs there.. hahahaha... i outlasted Cherie.. haha..

Saw Pig there.. he was like high.. almost drunk.. haha.. Cherie was a bit scared of him.. dunno y also.. she's like bigger size den him.. haha.. too bad didn't get to meet up with Erik.. he went back abt 3+.. he was a bit drunk.. i wonder wot he drank though.. haha..

Erik's a super nice and funnie guy.. he really can make me luff until my cheeks are like cramped up from luffing.. so far we've gone out like 3 times..

1st time we went to Xin Wang @ Marina Sq.. it was comfortable talking to him.. and he's interesting to talk to as well..

2nd time was when i went to Zouk with Baby.. Baby knows him as well.. so he came down to join us.. he send me home tat night.. gave him a peck on the lips for being so sweet.. =)

3rd time.. oh.. haha.. was last thurs morning.. 11 dec.. was out clubbing with baby.. was smsing with him.. but he fell asleep.. he woke up abt 3 almost 4.. and i asked him if he wanted to go for breakfast? haha.. i was joking with him.. but i was surprised that he didn't mind.. =D

i drove that day.. so i went to pick him up.. and we went for Mac breakfast... and i was luffing again.. especially when he took a bite n kinda had an orgasm face.. hahha... interesting breakfast... =) after that took him home.. and went to peek at his van.. had to buy papers cos Dad n Mom went to genting again.. he took me for a ride in the van.. which was like wasting petrol.. cos i could walk out n buy the papers from his place.. which was like a 5mins or less away..

when we were back at my car.. he opened the door for me.. i threw the papers in the car and turned around.. gave him a hug.. and hesitated a bit b4 pecking him on the lips.. =) nice n slow...

i like to go out with him.. it's funnie and he's nice to be around with.. and he's a gentleman.. baby says go slow... he's a good catch... well.. i am going slow.. but i dunno if he's interested or not... hmm.. how ar? hahahaha

Happy Birthday Daddy~!

Happy Birthday to moi Daddy~!!!

i love you~!!!

Dear Smelly,

Snapping + Ice Cream

Did something stupid today.. was not in the best of moods... blasted out at Smelly which eventulally i regreted.. but sometimes once you're said something u can't take it back... said some really mean things which made sense to me.. i've been suppressing it inside of me.. i guess when the pressure is too much i juz snapped..

Sigh... Smelly said i was damn fierce this morning.. i told him too much stress + PMS coming + lack of sleep makes me a walking time bomb...

To make up for being so mean i gave him 2 pints of ice cream... Strawberry and Mac Nut Brittle.. Felt really mean to say those things to him.. nearly burst into tears when he gave me pinch my cheeks and gave me a kiss on the forehead.. *sigh*

This pint is mine~!! Love Love this... super yummlicious~!! *slurp*

Weekend of Spooks n Fun

This weekend was fun~!

Fri we (Lynn, Xiao Fu, Kim, Kit, Xue ni, her fren Sharon and I) we went for a twlight tour which was organised by Safra Mount Faber.. there was about 33 pax.. 1 bus load full of ppl.. 2 staff from Safra and 4 staff from the company called API..

Our 1st stop was at Haw Par Villa.. the 10 courts of Hell.. seriously.. if they ever have a holloween party there.. i'll definately go~!!! okie.. back to the trip...

The 10 courts of hell was... well.. the same as i went this year... or was it last year for my tourism management project? the place really need a boost of life...

Next was the most interesting part.. and my personal fav of the whole trip.. The Bukit Brown Cemetry.. it's somewhere erm.. central of Singapore? not sure leh.. very ulu ulu de.. we had to walk into like the jungle.. =D

it's like a night walk expidition.. i like.. haha.. but it's through the cemetry.. it was dark.. the ground was wet n slippery... and it was humid man.. really can sweat in there.. anywhoos... we visited Mr Harry's grandfather's grave.. =D we were also told that this cemetry might not be around soon.. as the governement will take it back for redevelopment.. =(

den next was the WW2 Underground Bomb Shelter near King's road.. somewhere in Sambawang.. nothing special though.. juz go down the shelter.. look look see see.. that's it..

and den it was the last stop.. Kampong Lorong Buangkok. the last Kampong in Singapore.. i guess it would be more interesting if we were to see it in the morning/afternoon when there is light.. cos it's so dark.. and there's like nothing to see.. also cannot make must noise as the people living there are sleeping...

we could not go to Pasir Ris Swamp due to time constraints.. so after taking the group picture.. we went back to Mount Faber..

Tiring trip.. but interesting.. i was thinking should i go to the Night Safari the following night.. and boy.. i'm glad i did.. cos it was FUN~!!!! i'm glad that i did not back out...

There was 5 of us big kids and 1 small one.. The big ones are: Kit, Fu, Xue Ni, Lynn and myself.. and the small one was called Elise who was Lynn's cousin.. we had dinner at Ulu Ulu.. it was nice.. thank goodness for Kit who was working in the Zoo.. if not hor.. wah liao.. damn expensive sia.. we had fried rice... Chili Crab.. sambal stingray and dunno what chicken.. and with 4 drinks.. slipt between thee 5 of us.. we each paid $16~! whoohoo~!

After dinner we went to sit the tram.. we sat on the Holloween Tram.. sheesh... the 1st part n last part was the same as the normal tram ride.. but the middle.. OMFG... *SCREAMS* it's not for the faint hearted or for any very very young kids... Kit was sitting beside me.. and i gave him some scars.. =X

after the ride.. we took a walk in the trail of the forest giants? not sure like.. but i think it's called something like that... God.. can hear people screaming loh.. and i also scream at 1 point.. cos of 1 idiot actor who was dressed in costume.. i already kenna fighten by him.. and i went Omg OMg Omg.. hahaha.. den when i walk past him.. he lifted his hand like wanted to grab me.. and i let go a blood chilling scream.. muhahahahhahah... and i started luffing after that.. whahahha...

The people in costumes are great~! really Kudos to them all~! it's hard work but they did a fantasitc job.. i'll go back again next yr if they hav another holloween night theme~!

Missing Koh

I kinda miss Koh...

~Pig's 27th Birthday~

Juz came back from the pig's place... it's his birthday today...

bought him a little cake.. he was surprised to see it.. =)

Happy eating while watching his Grey Anatomy.. hope he liked the cake.. didn't know if he like chocolate or strawberry.. so bought him a Mango cake..

hoped he like his birthday present too... =D

Summary of the Week

okie.. lack of updates... will do a very fast summary...

Let's see... i had a long week... during the weekend was Cherie Baby's 23rd Birthday celebration.. a 3D2N Chalet @ down town east... also Gracie was leaving for UEA.. she'll only come back like once a year... =(

the Chalet was tiring.. omg.. couldn't believe how tiring it can be man... Sat went home after seeing Gracie off at the Airport.. Sun bucked in with Gene.. didn't want to stay at the Chalet.. if not sure drunk.. Alan smsed me at 3.30am telling me that he juz reached there and why did i go home?? -.-

Monday morning.. had a hard time waking the pig up.. i think i'm easier to wake up den Gene.. omg.. i wonder how he managed to wake up during his NS days.. sheesh... instead of waiting for him to send me home.. i took a bus home.. and that pig was bloody surprised that i managed to find my way home from HG... -.- the best thing abt that pig was that.. he was suppose to be in the office at 10am.. he bloody hell reached office at 12+.. omg~!!!! PIG~!!!!

Today (Wed) is Hari Raya a PH.. won't see Smelly online until 2molo.. miss him... miss his smell (perfume smell not his shit smell or BO (which he does not hav)) miss his hugs.. miss his kisses.. haiz..

Merv came over to do IMC.. and we're damn proud to complete it in like 2 hours? hehe.. it's relatively easier den Kevin & Sherie's part.. but den still need to tink hor... emailed it to the rest.. to ask them to use ours..

wat else did i miss out?

oh yeah.. juz met that pig.. went over to his place to watch some show.. that Pig was surprised that i could remember how to go to his place.. -.-

Sheesh.. like of cos i can lah.. Dav.. Gracie/Jackie.. Lennard.. Mark/Moses/Jac stays there.. + Kong Kong's in St Annes... so yah.. HG certain areas i'm familiar lah.. and thank goodness he stays in the familiar area... wahhahhaha... =D

Samuel's Wedding

Sun was Samuel's wedding.. met up with Cherie darling.. and we went to the hotel together.. we both changed and make up in the toilet..

She wanted to go there early cos she had a rehersal with Sam.. they were the emcees for the night... wahahhahaa...

Saw Sam, Malim, Andrew and Weijie there... long time never see them le.. me n Cherie was sitting together with Arena ppl... if sit with our Shatec Mates.. end up.. me n Cherie will be the only girls there.. so weird...

it was nice nice.. but dinner was a bit too much.. too full liao... think by the time the chicken came.. we all didn't touch it.. too freaking full...

if i ever get married.. will my hubby die of alcohol posioning? wahahahhahhahaa...

Weekdays i'm happier

i like weekdays more den weekends... cos i can chat with Smelly online... =)

he asked me this question last week... Why do i wake up so early when i sleep so late..

my answer:

Cos

1) i needed to pee... hav been drinking too much water b4 i sleep...

2) cos i want to chat with him.. as he was working morning shift.. i only had the timing from 6.30am - 3pm to chat with him online.. b4 he off work.. cos his lappy is in the shop for servicing... and even he is busy most of the time at work.. and his replies are SLOW... i'm still happy to be able to chat with him..

with my 2nd reason.. he said that he was touched... =)

enough of updates for now.. i wanna crash liao.. i'm even too tired to paint my right hand nails.. only the left hand nails are done...

Fun time with my gangs of frens

hav been too much fun recently to update.. haha.. class has started again...

Charles n Ray hav ganged up on me... they keep on teasing me abt smelly... haiz... both of them ar.. now become good brothers... omg...

Gracie (Cheire's pri sch best mate) has gone to UK 2 study... send her off at the airport on Thurs... Cherie came to fetch me... den after the airport... Cherie, Max & Me went to meet Mei Mei, WB, Ray & Charles @ changi V... after that we went to Loyang Tua Pek Gong.. it was my 1st time there.. and the temple was pretty... i watched all of them pray... and ask wat is this god.. what is that god.. and wat do they protect etc...

Told Smelly that i was there.. and he asked me to pray for his health n mine.. but i cannot pray.. so i told him.. i ask cherie to pray on our behalf lah... =)

After that we went to ECP Mac.. our final stop b4 goin home.. hahaha... Sat there n talk until abt 1+ it was goin to be 2am le... so fun... hee.. Smelly wanted to see me that night.. but i didn't go over.. backside was itching to go over.. but i kept my ass on the chair.. i dun want Charles to say me again... BleahZ..

den last night went out with Fu, Jerlyn, Kit n Xue Ni for dinner.. we had sushi~!! yeah.. my raving is satisfied... hee.. but i had to leave them after dinner.. cos i was heading down to wala wala to meet the other gang... hahaha... i have too many grp of differnt frens liao.. hehe..

Dal, Xue Wen, Koh, Channel, Stephen Yap, Mok and his wifey was there.. =) we talked abt our pervious jobs... etc and wat we doing now... hehe.. omg. the total bill was like $200+... wat on earth did they drink wor.. i only had 1 bottle of Hoegarden.... which i didn't really finish... Cherie came late.. and she miss out on meeting Channel... Max came to join us later too..

den we went to Beauty World to eat supper... Teochew porridge.. den i shared cab back with Koh... =)

GAME OVER

had enough of mind games... it's torturing mentally and physically... please stop saying that u miss me... and that you are thinking of me.. what's the point of saying all that when you have a GF.. you asked me to move on.. but yet u leave me hanging.. Stop toying with my feelings.. i have had enough...

Game Over...

Doc & Ice Creams

went to the doctor's with Sherie.. there's something wrong with my Sony phone.. couldn't receive any calls... and neither could i call out too.. but i could recieve smses and send smses out.. think need to go get it serviced... managed to drive the car out to meet sherie...

after seeing the doc.. we went to the Bedok Corner Food Center.. which was just opp.. as i was waiting for Sherie to get her food.. i saw Yogurt Kor Kor and Sarah Jie Jie.. hehe... they were there for dinner as well.. it was nice to see them again.. introed Sherie to them... =) as well as told her how long i've know Kor Kor.. =)

well... Ms Lim was hard up for Ice Cream.. and she wanted to go to this place called Ice Cream Chef.. it's a Ocean park condo... a very small ice cream place and interesting flavours.. it's cozy... Ms Lim totally over ate the ice cream... hahhaa... She ta paued a pint home..

Sherie and her 2nd Cup of Ice Cream

we went to find kimmy at her work place.. needed the charger for the Shuffle.. muhaha... and i managed to park pararel for the 1st time after i pass my driving test.. and without help... took quite a while.. but i managed to do it~! i'm so happy with myself... Sherie let Kimmy and her fren Sam try the ice cream... Kaya Loti & Milo Peng with Conflakes.. i'm not used to the taste.. so maybe that's y i didn't really like it..

after that i send Sherie home.. and i'm home b4 12 today.. haha.. have to go n sleep now.. Smelly wants to meet for breakfast.. but he didn't give me the time... all he said was he will call me to wake me up... hope it's not too early wor... if not i won't hear the phone.. grrr.. that's the trouble of not setting a time with him.. i don't wanna get my hopes up.. cos if he does not call.. den i won't be too disaapointed... again..

so time to hit the sack... niteZ...

DF on a Wed Night

went to DF yesterday night... went with Kim and Sherie... i always have a blast with them.. but i think we 3 girls hav toned down... we didn't drink so much... we didn't dance that much.. it seems as if... we have grown older... hahaha.. while waiting for Sherie n Kim to reach DF.. i walked around Vivo.. and decided to purchase a book... it cost me $35... it's called Yakuza Moon... not bad...

Mei Mei was goin to Powerhouse.. so i met her outside DF to follow her to PH... stayed there for like 15 - 20 mins or so... b4 heading back to DF... as i was walking back.. i saw Alan.. my classmate from Shatec.. and i told him where we were sitting at in DF... soon after he came to join us... 2gther with some of his frens..

Da Eric came all the way from Malaysia.. juz to see kimmy.. think she was shocked as well as delighted and touched... i know i will be... =)

she left abt 3.30 with Eric.. didn't want to be the light blub.. so i stayed on.. with Sherie, Alan n gang.. stayed until abt 4+... b4 we headed home.. Dad smsed me.. asking me where i was.. told him i was on the way home...

freaking tired...

The Ride

the bike ride was a mixture of feelings.. it was interesting.. and scary... it's been a while since i did something advanturous and exciting...

i trusted Smelly.. that's y i went with him on the ride... and i did enjoy myself on the ride.. it was a mixture of emotions as well... i wanted to hug him tight but i couldn't.. i juz held on.. only tightening my grip as he sped up.. the feeling of being so close to him yet so far is unbearable... but i have to accept it.. bit by bit... day by day...

i didn't want the ride to end... but sometimes you juz need to wake up from the dream... as he dropped me off at my place... he wanted a hug.. and i gave in to him.. when the hug ended.. he gave a me a peck on the cheek... it didn't give me any happiness... instead it kinda made me sad.. but i had to smile and thank him for the ride.. i clearly know where i stand.. i cannot want anything else from him.. i have no right to do so...

i may seem strong... but that's just the surface... in the inside.. i feel empty... lonely... sad... a mixture of emotions in me...

Butterfiles...

Smelly told me to move on.. but it's damn hard when he's telling me that he misses me... that he dreamt of me.. dunno what he's up too...

Anyway.. i meeting him soon to pass him his present.. and also to see his new harley... he goin to gimme a ride on it...

And i've got butterfiles in my tummy... cos it's my virgin experience..

Will blog more about it when i'm back and if i'm not tired..

Moving on

okie... i've decided to follow my friends advice.. i've goin to try to move on.. it's goin to be a long and painful path... but i will try... i've gotten out of this shit hole once... and i will get out once again...

He's no more sweetie... he now smelly... juz smelly.. he says he does not treat me like a 3rd party... but he treats me like someone close...

i did finally ask him... if he likes me.. his reply was... got good feelings for you.. haiZ... He also said that it's only fair for me to move on.. and when he's single again, we can try out again..

he's not helping much... cos he says he misses me.. i miss him too.. but i know i hav to li ta yuan yi dian... he wants cuddles and he want hugs... well.. he can go get it from his gf from now on.. the only thing i'm goin to do with him is to talk, crap, pinch, slap and luff at him...

Gonna pass him his bday pressent... and den it's good bye Sweetie....

3rd Bling Bling & Sweetie's Birthday Gift

i spent too much liao.. omg.... over spent~!!!!!!!! argh....

anyway... i got my 3rd bling bling.. hehe...

Ruby red

my 1st & 3rd Blings..

While i was getting my 3rd bling bling.. i also bought Sweetie's birthday pressent.. not too sure if he will like it not.. hope he does... i'm not showing the present until after he opens it.. juz in case Sweetie is reading this.. =)

Sweetie's Birthday Present.. =D

Hope he will like it...

Miss Miss

Sweetie Pie

Sweetie... i had a great time with you tonight..

I enjoy yr company alot... and nothing can express the bliss i am in when i'm with you..

Thank you for your kisses... thank you for your hugs..

i Miss you lots when we are apart....

and i cannot wait to see you again.. =)

Dalton's Birthday Pics

Dalton's 'Birthday Cake'

Steven Yap, Dalton, Koh

Koh & Dalton (PS Partners foreva)

Xue Wen & Dalton

Cherie & Dal

Dalton & Steven Yap

Raymond & Dalton

Random Pics of me & Cherie & Xue Wen

Dalton's Birthday

Had a wonderful time with my ex colleagues last time.. we went to brewerkz to celebrate Dalton's birthday~!

it was so fun to get together again... almost the full team though... Me, Koh, Dal, Xue Wen, Cherie.. only person missing was Serene... Steven Yap was also there.. and Raymond too~!

Raymond came down after work, together with Cherie.. really miss the times where i worked with them.. =)

at the end of dinner.. me, cherie n wen we went for a little girls talk outside... when we came back.. dal was looking at us.. and he said.. that's the whole team.. haiZ... i guess he missed working with us too.. =)

we watched the opening ceremony of the Olympics.. it was spectacular... the amount of fireworks they used... omg.. think millions of dollars~! it's nothing compared to wat our national day is going to be today...

after dinner, Cherie dropped me home to get the car... den me and koh went down to Terminal 2 ourselves, while Cherie n Raymond when to top up petrol for Jason's car... Max came down too... the 5 of us waited for Jason to come out of the departure hall..

den after saying welcome back.. we said our good byes... and i send Ray home.. den Koh.. and finally drove myself home.. so tired.. wanna sleep..

FAT FAT...

Last night went out to ECP mac with FAT FAT... long time never see him le... yes.. i had MAC again... -.-

Super cold... forgot to bring cardigan or jacket.. -.-"

hahaha..... and he passed me back Kimmy's Shuffle~!! whoo...

Super dulan thing... MONK smsed me.... when i was going out with FAT FAT... BRAWL~!!!!!

Ice Cream Buffet

I've been lazy to update abt my date with Sweetie a.k.a Smelly Smelly (hehe)...

Had the ice cream buffet at Velocity.. Mingles.. but i only had 3 scoops... =(

cos Koh bought me wanton mee earlier... so was still kinda full...

Smelly Smelly had 12 scoops~!!! he tried the 12 diff flavours... omg.. his hard work of running is goin down the drain... muhahaha... he fed me a little og the 12 flavours... =)

No pics though... =( next time... haahhaaha... when i bring mei mei there.. =)

We sat there talking... den we went back.. he went to meet his fren... while i went home to study... =( haiZ... Smelly Smelly accompanied me at the bus stop to wait for the bus... i dun dare sit his bike lah... me no hav courage yet.... muhahhaha...

later on at night.. was feeling so hungry... went to fetch Raymond... den went to look for Charles~!! hehe... went to TPY... Charles was doing a pre test for one of his shoots... and me n ray assisted him.... it was damn fun and funnie... hehe...

den we went to the Mac to eat~!! sit there with the 2 guys talking abt life, love, relationships... and it did got me thinking... maybe it's not meant to be... i'll just go with the flow 1st lah... after my exams will go ponder about it more... and go figure wat i wanna do...

Date wif Sweetie?

2molo goin out with Sweetie after his work.. hope nothing sudden will happen... den there will not be a change of plans... he will let me know 2molo morning... =)

I pray that there will be no change of plans~!

I wanna go out with my Sweetie~!

Love Love....

Jerlyn's Bday~!

after reaching home i went back to sleep.. woke up at abt 10am to get ready to go trim moi hair.. went back to Venson there... Sherie was late.. so Venson started on me 1st..

Pei Wen came down to join us for lunch... she waited for a while cos Sherie's hair was almost done.. den we went to eat hot pot... not too bad.. but the soup was kinda salty towards the end..

we went to Pacific Coffee to do our StM.. and it's when Sherie found out that she could not take the exam.. and she was quite pissed abt it... i think anyone would cos it's like after completing the whole module.. 1 week b4 the exams..you're told that you can't take the exam.. omg.. damn screw up.. now poor Sherie has to retake the whole module again.. so wat ever she has done with me (project wise) is not counted...

we left City Hall area to meet Pei Wen after work.. where we took a cab to bugis... was meeting Xiao Fu, Jerlyn, Kit, Lynn and Xue Ni for dinner.. we was celebrating Jerlyn's birthday~! =) and i freaking forgot to bring her present.. -.-

forgetful me.. nvm.. will pass it to her 1 day... after dinner we went for a coffee break and talked abt school etc.. den at 10.30pm.. i rushed home to continue to do my StM work.. -.-

HEADACHE ar... damn tired now.. will continue my StM 2molo..

In Total Bliss

i'm in total bliss... why??

Cos i spend the night over at Sweetie's place... *Super HUGE GrinZ*

i think i'm falling deeply again... worst den monk... omg...

it was juz oh so sweet..... to have someone you like hug u to sleep tightly... with kisses in between... tongue and no tongue.. heehee... in the morning when he woke up to go to work.. he walked me to the bus stop and accompanied me for a while.. but i told him to go to work.. dun want him to be late.. with a kiss good bye he left... =) i really enjoy his company...

feelings for him have grown stronger.. miss him so much when he was in Port Dickson... even though that was just 2 days... but miss him so much... wished i could be with him everyday...

OMG... am i in love? *looks around worried*

the last time i fell... it took me a real long time to get back up on my feet... if i fall again... i dunno how much time i need... i'm glad that Dan will be back... he has promised me that he will be there for me... =)

i'm glad to have friends like him around me..

Bling Bling 2

My 2 Bling blings... =)

YupZ... i bought a new one.. a 3rd might be on the way.. hehe... =)

love love...

i'm hungry at this time.. =(

Juz finished Sherie's Content Page.. Alignment.. and Appendices... super tired... =(

i wanna see Sweetie~! =(

Yearning..

i was distracted by charles.. until i did not type abt sweetie... haiz... he never sms or call or msn me yet...

how my heart yearns for him.. haiz... =(

but i had a good time luffing with the rest juz now... and the dessert stall aunty... she's so cute.. =)

What's your dream?

was juz at Changi V eating dessert with MeiMei, Ah Bang, Raymond, Eileen and MeiMei's 2 other frens..

met a guy called charles there.. he's a local and he's working on a cool project called 'What's your dream?'.. he's goes ard asking people if he can take a picture of them... holding a board which states their Name, Age and what are their dreams... he so far has taken over 1000+ pics.. people from all walks of life.. from china to malaysia to thailand... i asked him when will he stop taking pictures of his personal project.. his reply was... until the day he dies... cool huh... hehe... Do check out his website.. i think it's cool stuff...

http://www.mydreamsboard.com/

RAYMOND CHAN... NEXT TIME NO DURIAN IN MY CAR... STINK~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No Club... SobZ

Damn disappointed last night... i already had my 1st blow the night b4.. cos Sweetie was going to ride up to Port Dickson.. and could not go clubbing with me.. sad... den 2ndly i did not go clubbing last night... i did my make up liao... haiZ...

in the end went supper with Ray and Andrew (let's call him Beanie, cos he's working for Mr Bean, and plus i know too many Andrews already)..

Me n Ray went to hav Mee Sua @ Yong He... after that we waited for Beanie to catch up with us.. den the 3 of us walked to the Bak Kut Teh near 126... Beanie went to look for his fren... while me n Ray started eating.. hehe... den the 3 of us walked back to my place.. the 2 guys waited downstairs for me.. while i went up to get the car keys.. send raymond home... den Beanie... Beanie stays super close to me.. at Haig Road.. nearer den Monk wor.. hahhaha... went up to Beanie's place to look at some pictures he wanted to show me.. his skin head time.. haha.. he really got the Zian da kinda look wor.. haha... but Beanie's a nice guy... funnie n crappy... stayed until abt 6+ before i drove home.. super tired........

I miss Sweetie a lot.. cannot wait to see him again... which is i dunno when... =(

Going to go blading with Mei Mei later... dunno if i can make it not.. haha..

Disappointment

Sian... he not clubbing with me 2night... SAD... he has to ride up to port dickson... a convoy of 30 Bikers... omg..... told me not to get myself drunk... hope i won't.... =P

i going to miss him lots... until he comes back...

asked for a good nite kiss.. but i got 1 kiss over the phone.. i want real kisses... not over the phone.. not counted~!!!! BOO...

haiZ...........

STRESS

Freaking shit... damn stress... pimples popping out... omg...

weight like increasing.. omg.. cannot cannot... die... argh...

cannot wait for tonight... it's crystal jade dinner~!

den 2molo nite is clubbing~! whoo hoo~!!

Missing him more... hopefully sat he will join us at PH..

Missing him..

I miss chatting with him on MSN... i miss smsing him... I miss hugging him.. i miss kissing him.. i miss him holding my hand... i miss him cuddling me.. i miss him hugging me while he sleeps...

AIYAH... I MISS HIM LAH....

Worried and in Bliss

Went to the doc with Sherie... took my weight again... went down 1kg... haha.. think next mth if i go back n see him... might put it back... cannot cannot.. i have to maintain!!!!!!!!!

Worried abt StM... Final report.. completed my MRA part.. 2molo have to do StM liao.. worried...
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on another note... i like the kisses you give me.. i like yr hugs too... but more den anything else.. i wished that you were mine... bleahZ...

Seductive my ass.. haha

Eye bags getting worst each day.. but i like this pic.. cos got my ring.. love love... heehee..

Super bling... hee.. Comments i got abt this pic.. that it's seductive.. muhahaha.. eyes like kenna box like that.. omg.. haha... was in lazy to go n change after i got home from DF on Sat night.. was also thinking abt him......

Miss miss

...Missing him...

....more n more....

Sweet Sweet..

juz saw him.. outside my gate.. brought down the tub of Ben n Jerry's and he fed me outside.. at 4am... hee... in bliss...

He kissed me Good nite on the lips.. den i hugged him.. den he kissed me again on the lips and on the forehead.. but there was no tounge action lah.. juz sweet kisses... =)

it's juz damn romantic lah.. and sweet...

When he reached home.. he smsed me.. saying whenever he can he will try to give me good nite kisses.. however.. i replied him.. Better not lah.. later i fall harder for him... no response after that though...

HaiZ... part of me wished he could stay longer.. and juz hug me tightly... but whole of me know it's wrong.. plus.. i really dunno if he's playing with me or not... haiZ...

This is the sweetest moment which i had with him... =)

Convoys...

whoot... so fun juz now... went to pick Cherie up from Bishan.. den took her to woodlands.. to meet up with jason to take the car.. den went to CCK for supper to meet Lynn Mei Mei.. after that went back to Woodlands.. to get my car back.. den went to yishun dam... den all 3 cars went to have Chong Pang nasi lemak~!

best of all is.. all 3 cars has female drivers~! whoo.. i love convoys... hahaha... came home.. pump petrol for daddy.. den heng heng.. he juz woke up.. hehe.. now time for me to hit the sack too...

So Numb... So numb... SO DUMB...

gave in to my feelings.. den got a huge rude awakening this afternoon.. i dunno how will i react when i see him again.. i feel so numb... and so dumb... haiZ....

and to think i lowered my expectations.. ha.. wat a luff man... from a heaven... right down to hell... okie.. i'm being mean.. not hell lah.. earth i think.. worlds apart...

i need to clear my head... i need a drink.. hopefully can go drinking 2molo after iPod assignment... Kampai!!

Thank you Sherie for being there for me.. and Kimmy too.. love u 2 ladies...

New Lappy and Ring

i got a new lappy... yeah... thank you daddy...

even though it's 2nd hand.. i dun mind.. cos it's like brand new.. hardly even used.. Now i can msn in bed again... and watch online shows... whoo hoo~!!!! but problem is hor... i dunno how to use VISTA~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *faintZ*

MICROSOFT GIMME BACK XP~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

on another note... i bought myself a new ring~! cost me almost $40 but i love love... but i dunno if my finger shrunk or wat.. cos now the ring like BIG.. TMD... bleahz..

Cravings Again..

i got weird cravings...

i got cravings for Tauhu Teloh... from Bedok Corner... Whoooooooooo... Yummylicious... *DrooL*

24th Birthday

my Birthday juz passed.. flew by more like it.. haha.. had a blast of a time @ St James Last night..

Thank you all for those who smsed/msn/called me~! Really appreciate it that you guys remembered~! Love you all.. muckZ

Also wanna thank everyone who was there @ St James.. Cherie, Max, Sherie, Raymond (Bday Boy), Wei Tang, Wei Tang's Female Fren (forgot her name), Esi, Chandran.. and especially Kimmy and Hui Xian who came down after work... thanks babes.. and the ever funnie guy Kelvin aka KC..

Cherie Darling.. thank you for the erm.. bath robe... i dunno y u buy me that.. but ya.. thanks.. hahhaa...

Max.. thank you for the drinks and chicken wings.. hahaha.. and the Flaming Lumbo (dunno who else shared though)

Chandran... thank you for the waterfall (NOT).. hahaha..

A BIG BIG BIG thank you to Kimmy for saving my life.. hahaha.. sharing the waterfall with me.. thank u so much.. and also thank you for the apple shot.. haha..

KC.. thanks for the 'blowjobs' haha.. and showing your ASS CRACK to us.. hahaha..

Thank you Sherie so much for staying @ powerhouse even though u were so bored... i hope u had a bit of fun still..

Esi and Hui Xian.. thank you for being there~!

RAYMOND~!!!!! BDAY BOY~!!! hugs hugs.. hope u feel better... haha.. next time slow down.. dun drink too much.. Don't hai yourself leh.. hahaha..

Thank you Koh koh.. for the Jacket.. nice nice.. will keep me warm warm.. thank you for all the food also.. muhahaha.. the Sashimi... Mos Burger.. and Pasta... bleahZ.. hahaha... when u come back from yr Trip.. i treat u drink your 'kopi o'...

Lastly.. i wanna thank my Parents.. without them.. i won't be around... thank you for all the things you hav done for me... and thank you for the Chiffon CAKE!!

Aston... thank you for the poem..

NIGHT HAS END ANOTHER DAY,

MORNING HAS COME IN A SPECIAL WAY,

MAY YOU SMILE LIKE THE SUNNY RAYS,

AND LEAVE YOUR WORRIES AT THE BLUE, BLUE BAY

If i missed anyone out.. SORRY HOR... brain lag of sleep.. and too much alcohol~! hahah..

ANDREW.... I STILL WAITING FOR YOU TO COOK FOR ME~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bleahZ

Wet Dream

i had a dream.. kind of a 'wet' dream..

dreamt that i was locked up in a small room.. kinda like a jail cell.. and that i was suppose to get tattooed.. by this 'woman' only thing is.. she's not a woman... but a guy.. a cutie too.. dun ask me why was he a cross dresser cos i hav no idea..

was 'tortured' by him.. teasing me relentlessly.. i resisted against it.. but my temptation gave in.. he led me to the bed.. which he shared with 2 other girls.. 1 of them glared at me.. den she pulled the covers over her head.. she looked thai..

den he pulled me close to him n started kissin me.. and the next thing i know i was awake.. and i was feeling wet down there.. and yup.. my menses came.. muhahahhaa..

Malay Engagement Party

it was an interesting day..

it was my 1st time @ a Malay Engagement Party.. hav been to Weddings b4.. but this was a 1st to me.. =)

Was invited by Nordiana.. She's my pri and sec school fren.. hee.. she's so pretty.. it was like a mini SPF reunion of my malay girl frens.. hahaha.. gosh.. ages since i last met them.. and thank god i still can remember some of their names.. esp my own classmates.. hehe.. and luckly Shanez was there too.. hahaha..

Ani was there.. so was Aisha.. Nordi (of cos la).. Naf.. Faraliza.. den i dunno who else liao.. i was the only Chinese there.. totally like stuck out like a sore thumb.. hahaha... but it was great to see them again.. =)

Totally interesting.. =D

Happy Happy Happy Labour Day~!

i'm happy happy happy... bought 3 pairs of shorts from Topshop @ $47 something.. went to do pedicure with nailart cost me $37? not sure.. dun care.. happy happy happy..

and i finally get to see him again.. hehe... super duper happy~!!!

Distraction

he was a nice distraction.. hehe..

i like..

Weekend

mom lost her phone.. during her recent trip to Genting.. dad called me from Malaysia to get me to temp disconnect the line for her.. so early.. omg.. lucky i did not hav to speak to anyone.. juz press numbers..

when they came back.. mom ask me when i'm free to go genting with her for 1 wk.. 1 WEEK hor.. OMFG... wat the hell am i going to do there for 1 WEEK?? Sheesh... if go Macao i dun mind la.. haha.. at least there's JOey there.. and then can hop over to HKG.. =D

anyways.. Sun night/Mon morning.. went to Yishun to pick dearest Adrian up and we zoomed off to Holland V.. =D

That uncle is the same.. forever the same de.. haha.. only now getting older.. haha.. it was a pleasant surprise for Cherie.. haha.. cos i told her i bringing a surprise guest.. hehe.. send him home after a while.. cos he had to work..

It was nice little meet up.. hehe

3rd Road Block

went out for supper with Dav.. and on my way there.. i kenna road block again.. and heng heng the mata wave me though.. i think back.. and hav concluded that Bern did not bathe that night.. therefore.. kenna take down particulars.. he suay.. i should have been the one driving... zhen TMD..

over eat again.. this time Dav's treat.. muhahahahhahaha... we spent $40+ again.. =P

i'm still waiting for the meal to be digested..

A**hole

Sheesh... you're such a bad liar man.. u don't use yr friendster account anymore.. wat a joke.. such a a**hole.. well.. i'll seen though u.. and i'm done with ya..

Ciao..

Strange

i'm wondering.. why did Bern buy me over at Human pets... it's Strange.. nvm.. hope someone buys me again.. haha..

..I miss him..

Tired OuT

i'm tired.. i'm going to bed..

NiteZ all.. =P

Crazy Nite

Fri.. after class went drinking with Cherie, Jen and Kate @ Blue Jazz, it's near Arab St.. it's a nice chill out place.. without those Ang Mors creating a din..

Ordered a Beer.. which i didn't finish.. haha.. Had Stella..

Ger cmae home with me.. den i took the car out and we went for Dim Sum.. after which i send her home.. we talk n talk n talk n talk.. pretty much girls stuff..

den Sat came.. it was time to get ready for St James~! Whoo Hoo.. my final serious clubbing b4 my exams.. Met Lynn Mei Mei 1st @ Carls Jr., den Cherie and HP.. while they were eating... i went ahead to meet with Jo and pals..

Cos it was Yao Zhong (Bryan)'s Bday.. long time never see him le.. kinda miss those days i was hanging with those guys.. =) Miss miss

den Lynn came.. such a surprise that She knew Venson.. haha.. Venson kept telling me that he was waiting for me to perm moi hair.. omg.. no money sia.. haha.. maybe i shall trim 1st lah.. save more money den perm.. =D

after a while Ger, Lynn n Hp came to DF to look for moi.. den we hopped over to Power House.. Wished the other bday boy a happy birthday.. not very close to him.. juz an acquaintance.. only met him so far twice..

went to platform and dance again.. haha.. heck wat ppl think.. juz go up and Dance the night away again.. Ger's Cal came den she dissappear to the table leaving me n lynn... we dance dance dance.. thirsy den go down n drink.. i think i more shou with Calvin cos he like friendlier a bit la.. dunno y also.. haha..

after that i hopped back to DF.. PRing.. talkined to Yao Zhong again.. den went to find Lynn.. den Sherie n Kim was there too.. so went to look for them also.. den bumbed into Venson too.. omg.. was introduced to sooo many ppl.. until i dissy also..

was with Sherie went.. Cherie called and said she was leaving.. i went back to PH to look for Esi.. whom was also leaving.. so we left together after i found Mei Mei..

Esi came bcak to my place.. we went for Dim Sum again.. b4 i drove her home.. so tired... but shoike.. hehe..

I'm Back~!!!

i'm back form phuket.. and i'm currently HUNGRY....

Road Block Wor

Went to Mustafa with bern bern.. miss his hugs.. hehe.. went there to get his earphones.. the way he choose his earphones was so cute.. haha..

was craving for ice cream.. so he took me to Mac for a Cone.. went to AMK's Mac.. quite nice.. got water de... a bit the romantic.. saw a lot of ppl using lappies and watching You Tube.. haha.. Bern was asking.. why do ppl come to mac to watch You Tube? I told him was the WiFi was free and that the electricity also free lo.. so that's why ppl come over... plus.. Mac has air con~! =D

went we turned round the corner... there was a road block.. WTF man.. Bern super worried.. cos he juz converted his licence in Nov.. so he still need to put the P Plate.. haha.. they took our particlars.. den let us off.. omg.. scary.. haha.. cos the officer asked Bern.. 'How fast were u going? Do u know how fast you were going?' Omg.. like i think he was going 60 or 70 tops.. but i doubt is leh.. cos juz turn out wor... haha..

I'll miss bern bern's hugs n kisses when i fly to phuket~!

Tired...

i'm so stoned... i've not slept yet... omg... tired..

LEAVE ME ALONE

LEAVE ME ALONE.. DON'T CALL ME ANYMORE.. DON'T MSN ME ANYMORE.. I'M SICK AND TIRED OF YOUR CONSTANT ANNOYANCE..

I TRIED TO BE FRIENDS WITH YOU.. BUT YOU'RE TESTING MY PATIENCE WITH YOU.. PUSHING ME TO THE LIMIT.... I DO NOT WANT TO SEE YOU... I DO NOT WANT TO HEAR YOUR VOICE ANY LONGER.. IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO LISTEN TO MY WARNING.. DEN YOU LEAVE ME NO CHOICE.. I WILL CALL THE POLICE IF I HAVE TO.

SO

FUCK OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Emo-ing

Why are you emo-ing? Suddenly emo-ing?

Why is it that i feel that you are trying to hold me tighter? Why aren't you letting go of me?

I've loosen my grip on you.. i've let u go.. bit by bit.. It took me some time..

Will you do the same for me and let me go? Can i have your blessings?

You've been part of my life for 1 year + and counting.. i've grown fond of u.. Can we remain as friends? Close friends? I don't want you to be an enemy...

Had a scare..

Had a scare recently.. felt a lump in moi breast.. so told mom abt it.. she say better go to the doc for a check up..

so i went on monday.. with mom.. cos she had rashes.. so i shun pian ask the doctor too.. he referred me to a senior consultant @ SGH.. so i went there today..

reached there abt 9+ almost 10.. queued up to get my number which was like a far far far away number.. went to eat breakfast 1st.. b4 heading back down to the clinic..

there was 2 doctors in the room.. 1 young one.. and 1 old one.. the young one explained to me that mine might not be cancerous.. but juz to be sure.. he'll do an ultrascan for me.. when his shi fu (the old one) finished examined another patient.. i was brought to the next room to let the 2 Docs view my breast.. wahaha...

like kenna molest the kan jue leh.. haha.. the young doc examined both sides.. den the old one examined the breast with the lump.. and the best part of it was.. he used a pen to circle where the lump was.. omg.. den the old one did the ultra scan for me. while the young one watch.. den the old one told me.. there's nothing.. so i dun need to see him again.. until there's really something.. HENG AR... whahaha

den i went to the next room.. and the young one explained to me.. what's the lump etc.. scary leh.. cos my grandmother had breast cancer.. so i scared scared.. now a bit relived le.. =)

went out to make payment... $80+ omg.. faint.. snaky was there to accompany me.. den i told him something on the way out of the clinic.. which make him luff.. i told him that.. i think i made the young doctor's day.. cos i guess i'm the youngest patient with the biggest breast which he has seen n touched for the day... wahaha.. =X

Wu Liao Entry

Due to my 'sexy' pic.. guys have been msging me on WLNY.. once i forgot to log off.. and there was like 15 msgs.. like so many to reply sia.. haha..

i juz came home from supper? i dun think it's really called supper lah.. but i went downstairs for a cuppa milo.. met a guy called Eric.. not too bad looking.. looks like Xiao Mei (mike He) in person.. but on web cam... his eyes looks like edison's.. hehe.. kinda cute..

this is a senseless blog entry.. i is bored... i cannot sleep.. so i is typing away..

oh ya.. the previous night i went out for supper with Darren.. my BCom2 classmate.. went to pick him up and he took me to the kopitiam which was near Sgt's place @ Serangoon North.. haha.. called Sgt to invite him down to eat with us.. but too bad.. Sgt was cooking maggie mee.. and i almost caused him to burn his noodles.. hehe.. =X

I had wanton mee.. not too bad.. malaysia style.. black black de... but nice.. long time never eat le.. next time can bring koh there and eat... After noodles we went to chomp chomp for drinks.. sit there chat chat.. den it was home.. he showed me a short cut back to AMK Ave 3.. like fast loh.. was so amazed.. lolx... =P

Sexy Dress...

managed to take a pic in my dress... nice ma? hehe.. too bad it's only the top half.. i wanna take a full length pic.. but have to wait until my cousin Aidan and wife goes out.. if not it's very inconvenient to take pics in that dress.. have received a lot of comments abt my this pic..

Cousin Aud says that i trying to make ppl nose bleed.. some others commented that it was low cut... den others WAH U NOT WEARING A BRA AR?? like WTF.. is it a crime not to wear a bra? Sheesh... GROW UP GUYS... AND STOP YOUR DROOLING..

RANDOM again..

okie.. koh was reading my blog.. and he told me that i don't want him anymore.. i dun think that comment was fair.. why? cos he already has a gf.. that's like soooo unfair to me.. anyway.. my feelings are neutral already.. there's nothing much more i can say to that.. have given him a chance but he didn't treasure it.. so he can go be with his gf.. i dun wanna think abt it anymore.. have caused myself so much pain each time i try to break things off..

have stopped my dreaming already... it's time to wake up... will only continue dreaming of him when i see him online.. hehe.. =X

went supper with David @ Xin Wang again.. over eat AGAIN.. haha.. drank 2 ice HKG Milk Tea.. totally regret.. cos i'm still awake.. helped Dav with his reseach..

was invited over to Drew's place yesterday morning.. but i declined.. too early.. 10am sia.. eh.. anyways.. have been going out with Bern.. it's nice to hang out with him.. cos if i'm tired.. he can drive.. haha.. =P

i miss talking to Sgt on the phone.. told him i missed him ytd.. haha..

i'm a bit on the flirting war path.. dunno what's up with me..

bought a dress.. nice nice.. i like.. halter dress.. not too short.. but it's low cut.. i LIKE... hehe.. now i have to find an occasion to wear it.. was thinking of Marc's wedding.. but den it's like 2 mths away still.. am prepared to wear the white dress (which i wore @ Jac's wedding) for the church part.. den @ night wear this black one.. shall see.. cos i'm still on my diet.. dunno if i still can wear the dress by den not.. hehe..

so maybe offically i'll wear this black dress on Moses 21st? hmm.. depends if got go clubbing not.. haha.. if i wear out for dinner.. my cousins will ask where i going later or whom i going out with later...

I WANNA DRESS TO KILL AGAIN~!

Fa Hua Chi-ing (part 1? haha)

Last night i went to St james after class with Yan n Sherie.. @ abt 1.25am i went home.. rushed home in fact.. y? to log online to see if he's online.. was dissapointed that he was not online..

So went to play facebook.. and was chatting with Dal and some pals online.. den suddenly... *pong* He logged on... wah... i was super happy~!

He asked me who was the guy i wanted to dream of.. cos my Nick was : ~GiLLiaN~ Hope To Dream Of Him Again..... hehe... i told him.. that it was him.. but he didn't believe.. he went ya right.. as if it's him.. so i told him dun believe dun believe loh.. he juz luffed..

have no idea how he feels abt me though.. maybe i'm in my own world having my own crush.. while he only treats me like an old fren.. Sgt was telling me to go n tell him how i feel... but i dun want to... i shy... dare not want to burst my bubble.. but as what he said.. if i dun try how i know... maybe i juz want to have this feeling bah.. want to live in this fa hua chi-ing world of mine.. this feeling was so much stronger den the urge to know Ben's fren.. haha..

should i tell him? should i not? i dunno.. but i damn happy when he went bye sweetie on monday night.. den last night he wanted to tell me something b4 logging off..

he told me: "but before i go.. wanted to say to u that you look really pretty in your MSN pictures"

den we chatted a bit more b4... he had to go.. i have this habbit of going *hugZ* to him b4 he logs off..

and his reply to me was: hugz too... sweet dreams my dear

whooo... cannot sleep sia.. was grining away... was telling Dalton.. haha.. he told me quick go n sleep.. go n dream abt him... hehe.. but i could not.. how to sleep???? was so happy wor... was jumping in my room... hehe.. lucky Daniel not online.. if not hor.. haha.. he'll be damn irritated by me.. wahaha..

i guess.. if 'he' reads this post.. he'll know that i was not lying.. *grining away again*

Super Random Post..

I think i'm going bonkers.. i'm having a crush again.. a very long time crush.. this time the feeling is like stronger... stronger den b4.. i think it's no longer a crush.. but an infatuation.. haha... yanZ tak boleh tahan me.. hehe.. keep looking at the picture and going all soft n mushy.. wahaha... Dunno what the hell is wrong with me too.. haha.. hormones i think.. hehe

Da ladies was over @ my place finishing up da presentation for IM.. more of a touching up and adding stuff... and gossiping.. haha.. luffing too~! Damn funnie lah.. haha.. next time maybe can ask them to stay over liao.. since Sherie works @ Stamford House.. and Yanz work @ Kallang.. so both nearby.. they can sleep a little bit more.. haha..

After working so hard.. 3 of us got hungry.. so we went to have Dim Sum.. yummy... hehe.. den drove down to Sin Ming to go pick Luke up.. unfortunatedly got a bit lost and ended up @ RI/RJC there.. so his frens had to drive him over.. wahaha... Sended Yanz back 1st.. den Sherie den Luke.. realised that he he stay very near my Ah Ma.. haha..

On another note.. earlier in the day... Met up with Serene.. went to do my brows.. get it shaped.. hehe.. den lunched @ Soup Spoon.. tried their Clam Chowder.. soso.. i think the mushroom taste nicer.... den went over to ALDO and got 2 sunglasses @ $9 each... wahaha... if not it's $35/25 each wor.. den we both headed to Ben & Jerry's for ice cream~! Yummy yummy... den chit chat until Xiao Fu and Sherie called.. Met them to go over to Kallang to meet up with Yan and also to have dinner.. was still full.. so only had teh.. i think that's y i'm still typing this.. hehe.. can't sleep.. yawning but can't sleep... *grinZ*

I can't wait to go phuket~! it's gonna be super fun~! Going with Fu, Yanz, Kim and Sherie~! Yeah.. hehe... i CAN'T FREAKING WAIT~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Shopping

okie... i've dissappeared for kinda long while... haha... actually i'm juz lazy to update lah.. haha...
went to Bugis to shop for some new clothes.. and yes... i spend a lot of money... haha...
i bought 1 berms... 1 like berms kinda pants... 2 t-shirts.... 2 camisoles... & 2 pairs of heels (1 high n 1 low)

(Low heels)

(High Heels)

I think i'll fall down.. haha... the colour of this heels super match my toe nails colour now.. heehee.. ^_^...