Bad Bad Bad..

Had a very bad weekend.. and a very bad start of the week too..

Was so pissed off with APMI's MS Levina. The new Program Manager for my course... I have never met anyone who is in APMI who is as Ridiculous AS HER!!! Expecting me to inform her 1 week in advance when i am sick....

den later on in the evening, i was at Theresa's place.. Grace called and inform that her dad was admited to the hospital and he was going for a operation later in the night.. her dad was bleeding in the brain..

Things are really not looking to good

I HATE HER MORE

i think my life has just gotten worst.. i walked out of the house.. not wanted to continue the argument.. i wanted to study... but when i came back.. i found the door latched..

my MOM... YES MY MOM... latched the door.. i'm now sitting outside the main door... lucky i still can access the Internet from here... i do not know what sort of mother she is.. but from wat i can see... she's nothing good.. i'm starting to HATE her all over again...

it took me years to try to forget what she did to me when i was younger... accusing me of causing her miscarriage... making me the main source to vent her anger on.. whacking me for every little thing i did wrong... bashing my head against the wall.. throwing almost everything she can get her hands on... at one point she threw a knife at me.. whacking me with clothe hangers... and almost a belt.. unfortunately i didn't forget.. how on earth am i suppose to forget what she has did to me? i only can thank god that i did not have 2 other sisters to suffer the same fate..

it took alot of self control not to hit her back... i really wanted too.. but i held and suppress the anger inside of me.. so many a time i wanted to scream back... now i'm older... and when i scream back... it becomes a shouting match... whatever i say... it's going to hit her 2X more... Y?? cos the words which comes out of my mouth is all the truth... and she knows that it is the truth... but she refuse to admit her mistakes...

I HATE HER EVEN MORE NOW..

Exhausted..

i'm sick n tired of her screaming at me all the time.. i'm down with a sore throat... and fever.. i'm feeling very heaty at the moment.. i'm also very tired...

i did not ask her to come back with dad.. i did not ask her to stop gambling... i did not ask her to do anything..

all i did was to tell her not to cook.. does asking her not to cook mean that i do not want to have dinner? i do not think so.. life is not too good at the moment for me.. life is going to the dumps..

i do not feel like doing anything... i walked out of the house with my books and laptop.. walked out of everything.. i do not have the intention of sitting for my exam tomorrow.. i feel like jumping off a building.. but will that solve everything? anything? i do not think so..

i'm sitting all alone at Mac... typing this down.. but i do not feel like studying... i want to cry... but i can't... i trying to put up a very strong front... but i dun think i can hold on forever.. it's very exhausting.. i want to lie down to rest.. but i can't.. i have nowhere to go too.. no one to run too..

why is this happening to me? i'm sick n tired of living anymore..

Lushful Lashes...

my HR exam is on monday... and i have no mood to study... have been really tired out recently... i wonder why... might because of work... so many events during March.. until i'm abit drained out..

Have to juggle with work, school work and of cos the Dinner & Dance stuff... have no time to even practice for our performance.. opps... we dun even have any performance to perform... that is how busy we are.. any plus.. koh was on overseas leave... oh well.. i think we juzt have to come out with something by thursday!

Oh ya... i went to perm my eye lashes... quite happy with the results... and it's not as painful as how Eva has decribe it would be... there's some discomfort when the lady put some kind gel substance on my lashes... and when she was cleaning the substance off... if not tat's it!! now i do not need to use the curler anymore!!! anyway i seldom use also lah... heehee... maybe next time i shall try the lash extention!! Cos mom say my lashes are not enough... o_O"

2nd Childhood

I'm going back to my 2nd childhood.. have been buying VCDs/DVDs of Disney's Classics...

Recently have bought... Cinderlla... Little Mermaid... Peter Pan...

I'm going to start collecting them... quite nice to watch them again... but hor... it's not cheap leh....

New Apartment!!

Yeah... on the last entry i was talking about the apartment which i viewed? Well... on that night my parents made the deposit... and it seems that the Owner of that apartment has signed the agreement!!

WooHooo~!!!! okie.. as promised... I'll tell more about the apartment!!

The Apartment has 3 Bedrooms... actually 4... but one of the bedroom wall was knocked out to make the master bedroom bigger... and the apartment also has 4 toilets... and out of the 4 toilets... 2 are attached to the bedrooms!!!!

One of it is in the Master bedroom... and the other... is in my future bedroom.. so no more fighting over the toilet with my dad in the morning!!! But u know.. i rather not have a bathroom to myself... cos... it means i have to clean it lah... me laZY... heehee... my bathroom has a bathtub in it.. and so it means i can soak myself there... heehee... the other 2 toilets are common toilets... 1 near the dining area and the other one is in the kitchen...

the space of the apartment is much bigger den the one i'm staying in now.. the floors are marble and the bedroom floors are parquet... it's quite in good condition... except that the kitchen needs to be done up nicely.. i hope my mom will get an oven.. den i can start baking cakes... heehee... long time never make brownies le... hoo... brownie ala mode... nice... heehee...

my dad is happy also.. cos there is a storeroom which is quite big... he can store his barang barang there...

the living room is like 3 steps down from the main door... the housing agent says that it is called Hong Kong style... well... to my dearest cousins.. it's like Daniel's place at Sheradon Court... if you can remember how 'Sa Yi' old house looks like before she moved to Mangis Road.....

There is also a back door but i think it's a bit redundant... cos it's like facing the main door... -____-"...... but the common area outside the apartment is HUGE!!! so HUGE that i and my parents cannot believe it!!! can put 2 buffet lines in the centre and there is still space to walk around!!!

There's only 4 apartments to 1 floor... and there is 2 lifts in the block... and 2 emergency exit staircase on each floor too... downstairs there is a gym... a not so used pool table... 2 Foosball machine... 1 climbing wall in the next block... 1 ping pong table... 1 bbq pit and a nice sit down area... not too bad... quite cozy...

the apartment has a security guard... and has it's own car park.. thank goodness.. and the lift landings can only be excess by a security pass... there is also 1 gate going towards paya lebar MRT station... the gate also needs a security pass to enter... so there is no access for any tom, dick or harry!!!

So excited!!! but we won't be moving in until next year... i think...

Apartment Viewing

i juz came back from viewing another apartment near Geylang there... it's way way much better den other other one in the next lane...

there's so much more space.... and the apartment area is bigger den the one which i'm currently staying in now... i dun mind moving there though... but a bit scared cos... geylang there leh... even though the red light district is further down the road... it's still a bit scary...

well.. if the deal goes though.. den i'm moving to the 5th floor~!!!!! finally... no more ground floor le... heehee... i will keep you in suspense now... until the deal is finallized... den i'll open up more about the apartment... and also if i have the time to blog and most importantly... if i remember lah...

Travel Plans!!!!

i'm going to Hong Kong and Phuket~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YEAH............................................. but it also means that i'm skipping classes... =(

oh well... i'm going with my classmates.. so we shall 'talk' about school work on holiday.. heehee...

Can't wait till MAY~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!