GAME OVER

had enough of mind games... it's torturing mentally and physically... please stop saying that u miss me... and that you are thinking of me.. what's the point of saying all that when you have a GF.. you asked me to move on.. but yet u leave me hanging.. Stop toying with my feelings.. i have had enough...

Game Over...

Doc & Ice Creams

went to the doctor's with Sherie.. there's something wrong with my Sony phone.. couldn't receive any calls... and neither could i call out too.. but i could recieve smses and send smses out.. think need to go get it serviced... managed to drive the car out to meet sherie...

after seeing the doc.. we went to the Bedok Corner Food Center.. which was just opp.. as i was waiting for Sherie to get her food.. i saw Yogurt Kor Kor and Sarah Jie Jie.. hehe... they were there for dinner as well.. it was nice to see them again.. introed Sherie to them... =) as well as told her how long i've know Kor Kor.. =)

well... Ms Lim was hard up for Ice Cream.. and she wanted to go to this place called Ice Cream Chef.. it's a Ocean park condo... a very small ice cream place and interesting flavours.. it's cozy... Ms Lim totally over ate the ice cream... hahhaa... She ta paued a pint home..

Sherie and her 2nd Cup of Ice Cream

we went to find kimmy at her work place.. needed the charger for the Shuffle.. muhaha... and i managed to park pararel for the 1st time after i pass my driving test.. and without help... took quite a while.. but i managed to do it~! i'm so happy with myself... Sherie let Kimmy and her fren Sam try the ice cream... Kaya Loti & Milo Peng with Conflakes.. i'm not used to the taste.. so maybe that's y i didn't really like it..

after that i send Sherie home.. and i'm home b4 12 today.. haha.. have to go n sleep now.. Smelly wants to meet for breakfast.. but he didn't give me the time... all he said was he will call me to wake me up... hope it's not too early wor... if not i won't hear the phone.. grrr.. that's the trouble of not setting a time with him.. i don't wanna get my hopes up.. cos if he does not call.. den i won't be too disaapointed... again..

so time to hit the sack... niteZ...

DF on a Wed Night

went to DF yesterday night... went with Kim and Sherie... i always have a blast with them.. but i think we 3 girls hav toned down... we didn't drink so much... we didn't dance that much.. it seems as if... we have grown older... hahaha.. while waiting for Sherie n Kim to reach DF.. i walked around Vivo.. and decided to purchase a book... it cost me $35... it's called Yakuza Moon... not bad...

Mei Mei was goin to Powerhouse.. so i met her outside DF to follow her to PH... stayed there for like 15 - 20 mins or so... b4 heading back to DF... as i was walking back.. i saw Alan.. my classmate from Shatec.. and i told him where we were sitting at in DF... soon after he came to join us... 2gther with some of his frens..

Da Eric came all the way from Malaysia.. juz to see kimmy.. think she was shocked as well as delighted and touched... i know i will be... =)

she left abt 3.30 with Eric.. didn't want to be the light blub.. so i stayed on.. with Sherie, Alan n gang.. stayed until abt 4+... b4 we headed home.. Dad smsed me.. asking me where i was.. told him i was on the way home...

freaking tired...

The Ride

the bike ride was a mixture of feelings.. it was interesting.. and scary... it's been a while since i did something advanturous and exciting...

i trusted Smelly.. that's y i went with him on the ride... and i did enjoy myself on the ride.. it was a mixture of emotions as well... i wanted to hug him tight but i couldn't.. i juz held on.. only tightening my grip as he sped up.. the feeling of being so close to him yet so far is unbearable... but i have to accept it.. bit by bit... day by day...

i didn't want the ride to end... but sometimes you juz need to wake up from the dream... as he dropped me off at my place... he wanted a hug.. and i gave in to him.. when the hug ended.. he gave a me a peck on the cheek... it didn't give me any happiness... instead it kinda made me sad.. but i had to smile and thank him for the ride.. i clearly know where i stand.. i cannot want anything else from him.. i have no right to do so...

i may seem strong... but that's just the surface... in the inside.. i feel empty... lonely... sad... a mixture of emotions in me...

Butterfiles...

Smelly told me to move on.. but it's damn hard when he's telling me that he misses me... that he dreamt of me.. dunno what he's up too...

Anyway.. i meeting him soon to pass him his present.. and also to see his new harley... he goin to gimme a ride on it...

And i've got butterfiles in my tummy... cos it's my virgin experience..

Will blog more about it when i'm back and if i'm not tired..

Moving on

okie... i've decided to follow my friends advice.. i've goin to try to move on.. it's goin to be a long and painful path... but i will try... i've gotten out of this shit hole once... and i will get out once again...

He's no more sweetie... he now smelly... juz smelly.. he says he does not treat me like a 3rd party... but he treats me like someone close...

i did finally ask him... if he likes me.. his reply was... got good feelings for you.. haiZ... He also said that it's only fair for me to move on.. and when he's single again, we can try out again..

he's not helping much... cos he says he misses me.. i miss him too.. but i know i hav to li ta yuan yi dian... he wants cuddles and he want hugs... well.. he can go get it from his gf from now on.. the only thing i'm goin to do with him is to talk, crap, pinch, slap and luff at him...

Gonna pass him his bday pressent... and den it's good bye Sweetie....

3rd Bling Bling & Sweetie's Birthday Gift

i spent too much liao.. omg.... over spent~!!!!!!!! argh....

anyway... i got my 3rd bling bling.. hehe...

Ruby red

my 1st & 3rd Blings..

While i was getting my 3rd bling bling.. i also bought Sweetie's birthday pressent.. not too sure if he will like it not.. hope he does... i'm not showing the present until after he opens it.. juz in case Sweetie is reading this.. =)

Sweetie's Birthday Present.. =D

Hope he will like it...

Miss Miss

Sweetie Pie

Sweetie... i had a great time with you tonight..

I enjoy yr company alot... and nothing can express the bliss i am in when i'm with you..

Thank you for your kisses... thank you for your hugs..

i Miss you lots when we are apart....

and i cannot wait to see you again.. =)

Dalton's Birthday Pics

Dalton's 'Birthday Cake'

Steven Yap, Dalton, Koh

Koh & Dalton (PS Partners foreva)

Xue Wen & Dalton

Cherie & Dal

Dalton & Steven Yap

Raymond & Dalton

Random Pics of me & Cherie & Xue Wen

Dalton's Birthday

Had a wonderful time with my ex colleagues last time.. we went to brewerkz to celebrate Dalton's birthday~!

it was so fun to get together again... almost the full team though... Me, Koh, Dal, Xue Wen, Cherie.. only person missing was Serene... Steven Yap was also there.. and Raymond too~!

Raymond came down after work, together with Cherie.. really miss the times where i worked with them.. =)

at the end of dinner.. me, cherie n wen we went for a little girls talk outside... when we came back.. dal was looking at us.. and he said.. that's the whole team.. haiZ... i guess he missed working with us too.. =)

we watched the opening ceremony of the Olympics.. it was spectacular... the amount of fireworks they used... omg.. think millions of dollars~! it's nothing compared to wat our national day is going to be today...

after dinner, Cherie dropped me home to get the car... den me and koh went down to Terminal 2 ourselves, while Cherie n Raymond when to top up petrol for Jason's car... Max came down too... the 5 of us waited for Jason to come out of the departure hall..

den after saying welcome back.. we said our good byes... and i send Ray home.. den Koh.. and finally drove myself home.. so tired.. wanna sleep..

FAT FAT...

Last night went out to ECP mac with FAT FAT... long time never see him le... yes.. i had MAC again... -.-

Super cold... forgot to bring cardigan or jacket.. -.-"

hahaha..... and he passed me back Kimmy's Shuffle~!! whoo...

Super dulan thing... MONK smsed me.... when i was going out with FAT FAT... BRAWL~!!!!!

Ice Cream Buffet

I've been lazy to update abt my date with Sweetie a.k.a Smelly Smelly (hehe)...

Had the ice cream buffet at Velocity.. Mingles.. but i only had 3 scoops... =(

cos Koh bought me wanton mee earlier... so was still kinda full...

Smelly Smelly had 12 scoops~!!! he tried the 12 diff flavours... omg.. his hard work of running is goin down the drain... muhahaha... he fed me a little og the 12 flavours... =)

No pics though... =( next time... haahhaaha... when i bring mei mei there.. =)

We sat there talking... den we went back.. he went to meet his fren... while i went home to study... =( haiZ... Smelly Smelly accompanied me at the bus stop to wait for the bus... i dun dare sit his bike lah... me no hav courage yet.... muhahhaha...

later on at night.. was feeling so hungry... went to fetch Raymond... den went to look for Charles~!! hehe... went to TPY... Charles was doing a pre test for one of his shoots... and me n ray assisted him.... it was damn fun and funnie... hehe...

den we went to the Mac to eat~!! sit there with the 2 guys talking abt life, love, relationships... and it did got me thinking... maybe it's not meant to be... i'll just go with the flow 1st lah... after my exams will go ponder about it more... and go figure wat i wanna do...

Date wif Sweetie?

2molo goin out with Sweetie after his work.. hope nothing sudden will happen... den there will not be a change of plans... he will let me know 2molo morning... =)

I pray that there will be no change of plans~!

I wanna go out with my Sweetie~!

Love Love....

Jerlyn's Bday~!

after reaching home i went back to sleep.. woke up at abt 10am to get ready to go trim moi hair.. went back to Venson there... Sherie was late.. so Venson started on me 1st..

Pei Wen came down to join us for lunch... she waited for a while cos Sherie's hair was almost done.. den we went to eat hot pot... not too bad.. but the soup was kinda salty towards the end..

we went to Pacific Coffee to do our StM.. and it's when Sherie found out that she could not take the exam.. and she was quite pissed abt it... i think anyone would cos it's like after completing the whole module.. 1 week b4 the exams..you're told that you can't take the exam.. omg.. damn screw up.. now poor Sherie has to retake the whole module again.. so wat ever she has done with me (project wise) is not counted...

we left City Hall area to meet Pei Wen after work.. where we took a cab to bugis... was meeting Xiao Fu, Jerlyn, Kit, Lynn and Xue Ni for dinner.. we was celebrating Jerlyn's birthday~! =) and i freaking forgot to bring her present.. -.-

forgetful me.. nvm.. will pass it to her 1 day... after dinner we went for a coffee break and talked abt school etc.. den at 10.30pm.. i rushed home to continue to do my StM work.. -.-

HEADACHE ar... damn tired now.. will continue my StM 2molo..

In Total Bliss

i'm in total bliss... why??

Cos i spend the night over at Sweetie's place... *Super HUGE GrinZ*

i think i'm falling deeply again... worst den monk... omg...

it was juz oh so sweet..... to have someone you like hug u to sleep tightly... with kisses in between... tongue and no tongue.. heehee... in the morning when he woke up to go to work.. he walked me to the bus stop and accompanied me for a while.. but i told him to go to work.. dun want him to be late.. with a kiss good bye he left... =) i really enjoy his company...

feelings for him have grown stronger.. miss him so much when he was in Port Dickson... even though that was just 2 days... but miss him so much... wished i could be with him everyday...

OMG... am i in love? *looks around worried*

the last time i fell... it took me a real long time to get back up on my feet... if i fall again... i dunno how much time i need... i'm glad that Dan will be back... he has promised me that he will be there for me... =)

i'm glad to have friends like him around me..

Bling Bling 2

My 2 Bling blings... =)

YupZ... i bought a new one.. a 3rd might be on the way.. hehe... =)

love love...

i'm hungry at this time.. =(

Juz finished Sherie's Content Page.. Alignment.. and Appendices... super tired... =(

i wanna see Sweetie~! =(

Yearning..

i was distracted by charles.. until i did not type abt sweetie... haiz... he never sms or call or msn me yet...

how my heart yearns for him.. haiz... =(

but i had a good time luffing with the rest juz now... and the dessert stall aunty... she's so cute.. =)

What's your dream?

was juz at Changi V eating dessert with MeiMei, Ah Bang, Raymond, Eileen and MeiMei's 2 other frens..

met a guy called charles there.. he's a local and he's working on a cool project called 'What's your dream?'.. he's goes ard asking people if he can take a picture of them... holding a board which states their Name, Age and what are their dreams... he so far has taken over 1000+ pics.. people from all walks of life.. from china to malaysia to thailand... i asked him when will he stop taking pictures of his personal project.. his reply was... until the day he dies... cool huh... hehe... Do check out his website.. i think it's cool stuff...

http://www.mydreamsboard.com/

RAYMOND CHAN... NEXT TIME NO DURIAN IN MY CAR... STINK~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No Club... SobZ

Damn disappointed last night... i already had my 1st blow the night b4.. cos Sweetie was going to ride up to Port Dickson.. and could not go clubbing with me.. sad... den 2ndly i did not go clubbing last night... i did my make up liao... haiZ...

in the end went supper with Ray and Andrew (let's call him Beanie, cos he's working for Mr Bean, and plus i know too many Andrews already)..

Me n Ray went to hav Mee Sua @ Yong He... after that we waited for Beanie to catch up with us.. den the 3 of us walked to the Bak Kut Teh near 126... Beanie went to look for his fren... while me n Ray started eating.. hehe... den the 3 of us walked back to my place.. the 2 guys waited downstairs for me.. while i went up to get the car keys.. send raymond home... den Beanie... Beanie stays super close to me.. at Haig Road.. nearer den Monk wor.. hahhaha... went up to Beanie's place to look at some pictures he wanted to show me.. his skin head time.. haha.. he really got the Zian da kinda look wor.. haha... but Beanie's a nice guy... funnie n crappy... stayed until abt 6+ before i drove home.. super tired........

I miss Sweetie a lot.. cannot wait to see him again... which is i dunno when... =(

Going to go blading with Mei Mei later... dunno if i can make it not.. haha..

Disappointment

Sian... he not clubbing with me 2night... SAD... he has to ride up to port dickson... a convoy of 30 Bikers... omg..... told me not to get myself drunk... hope i won't.... =P

i going to miss him lots... until he comes back...

asked for a good nite kiss.. but i got 1 kiss over the phone.. i want real kisses... not over the phone.. not counted~!!!! BOO...

haiZ...........

STRESS

Freaking shit... damn stress... pimples popping out... omg...

weight like increasing.. omg.. cannot cannot... die... argh...

cannot wait for tonight... it's crystal jade dinner~!

den 2molo nite is clubbing~! whoo hoo~!!

Missing him more... hopefully sat he will join us at PH..