Crab Bee Hoon...

Last night was too tired to blog... went out for dinner with Jacqueline, Cherie, Serene and Mother.. Dinner was yummy yummy... went to a Zhi Cha place in AMK... damn packed... alot of people eating crabs... seems very yummy...

We ordered 1 butter crab... 1 crab bee hoon, 1 yam ring and 1 sambal kangkong + extra bee hoon and soup for the crab bee hoon + 5 fried man tous.. total bill came up to $100+... 5 of us split... which equals to $20/person... very resonable...

even if i could not eat crabs... okie.. it's not that i can't eat crabs... rather i cannot touch the shell of the crab... if i do.. den if i use my fingers to touch my lips to eat the crab.. or pick the crab up n eat it like that... my lips will swell.. and i'll have Angelina Jolie's famous lips... not that i want to anyway..

the creamy butter crab is nice... the sauce is very unique... it's also not overpowering.. the butter taste is not too strong until you get sick of eating it.. it has a hint of curry favour.. due to the curry leaves which they have thrown in... not bad.. it's a must try... very different from the chili crabs...

The Crab Bee Hoon also not bad.. the soup is very tasty... the crab is also very big.. nice nice.. also another must try... the Yam ring is so so.. the kang kong not bad.. chili nice nice... *slurp* heehee...

just thinking and typing this out really makes my mouth water...

so dead bored now.. am in the office typing this post... finished counting the Handphone Pouches in the storeroom... now it looks so empty n clean... muhahahaa... cos Koh and me was packing it yesterday morning and afternoon..

now i'm waiting for 6.30pm to come before i go home... Daddy's picking me up... and i'm gonna sleep in the car... *yawnZ* so Sleepy....

2 Wakes today

today was almost late for work... but i reached there on time.. was the 1st one there even!! received my new silver name tag... magnet de.. must wear it everyday in the office... but sometimes forget to take it off... a bit ma fan.. but HR want it to be this way.. so no choice...

before lunch went to Jennifer's father's wake.. it's somewhere in Bukit Panjang... the flats there not bad leh... landscaping also quite nice.. okie back to the wake.. when Jennifer was talking about how her dad passed away.. i was trying not to be too emotional... it was very sad.. she was saying that her father died og liver cancer.. it's a very painful way to die.. as you cannot take any pills.. cos everything you take will have to go through the liver... she was also saying that her dad converted to Christianity not too long ago...

after the wake, we went to eat Fish Head Curry at Kuru's Curry.. not bad... the rice was served on a banana leaf... with 2 vege side dishes.. and 2 papadam... not too bad.. after lunch we went back for the fire safety talk... the next drill is going to be on the 31 Dec... hope the shutters dun come down again...

after the meeting.. surprisingly... i had not 1 but 2 phone calls from Event Companies who wanted to quote us for our D&D... i wonder where they heard the news from... anyway.. 2molo Brandon is coming down to give a presentation.. the last and final company to do so. as we need to give the answer to the Event Company fast...

Dad came to pick me up from work... together with mom... we went to the E Blackboard to have Western Food over at Bedok South i think... the portion is not too bad... for the main dish.. you can choose 2 sides to go along... my fish n chips was so so... dad's chicken wasn't too bad... mom's steak was a bit tough... it's like their standard is dropping.. or maybe there's too many orders already therefore the cook is too tired...

anyway.. mom was saying that Dua Kim's (Mom's elder brother's wife) brother just passed away.. and she was thinking of going to the wake... but dad said that he was meeting uncle joseph to talk about something with regards to the apartments... so he cannot go...

den i casually mentioned that i can drive him home and den drive mom to the wake over in hougang... muahhaha... surprisingly he allowed me to take the car... hahaha... so after dinner, we went home to change 1st.. den i took the car over to hougang... my parents was worried that i dunno where's the place.. but i know.. cos i've always observed which direction my dad is taking.. =D so i not that lu chi lah... muhahahahaa... only problem is i dunno how to park lah.. took some tries but managed too in the end... heehee...

when we reached there.. we went to pay out last respects to Dua Kim's brother... she den told my mom how he spend his last moments... so sad... from wat she and Jennifer said.. it got me thinking... maybe when you were about the die.. God or the Angel of Death will give you one last wish... like to die after seeing someone whom you've not seen in a long time.. it seems that it always happen.. that the person after seeing.. will just let go... and go in peace... it seems that way to me lah...

when my aunties and uncles asked where's my dad... my mom told them that he's at home.. he could not come as he had to do something.. den they asked her.. how you come here? my mom den told them i drove here... it's like a shock to them... hahaha... they were surprised that i could drive and that i already had my license... my dua kim said... i thought that you were still 18... all of you have growned up so fast...

after a while later i drove back home again.. during the drive, mommy den commented that i'm the only girl among the cousins which can drive.. and i said yes i am... muahhaha... which also means that after a night out.. if i have the car.. it means that i have to send everyone home...

Now i'm in my room blogging and going to sleep soon.. 2molo is another day for me.. well at least i can sleep longer on Sat and Sun... as there's no class... =D

dinner full full

bloody hell.. juz came back from dinner at Xian De Lai Steamboat, wanted to blog but the Internet connection was done.. have complained to Singnet already.. but still the same leh.. no difference...

in my last post, i was talking about my USB port got problem... seems to me that the problem automatically resolved by itself.. but there's still the sound.. whereby when u stick the USB into the com/laptop u will hear a 'ding tong' sound... still have that leh.. dunno wat to say leh...

juz got news that Michelle is resigning.. maybe she found a better job.. the news was told during Dinner.. therefore this dinner is sort of her farewell dinner.. hope Dal dun feel to sad.. cos he's the one who pulled her into the team.. i wonder if boss will hire another person ma... mmm...

also this morning had the presentation with Des D Mel.. i'm in charge of finding the Event Company for my company's D&D (Dinner & Dance).. total i got 4 companies... out of the 4.. the committee likes 2 of them... me personally think that.. out of 4 only 2 has given a better deal..

and the winners are : Des D Mel & ECS

ECS has done 1 of our D&D before.. i've also worked with them on serveral occations and they are very professtional.. plus the Emcee is not bad... if it's Ferris lah.. lol... Ferris is funnie and entertaining.. he also knows how to encourage the participants... the most important aspect of an event is the Emcee... if he/she is not entertaining or does not know how to get the crowed to warm up to him/her... the event will becoming totally boring... and it will be a wash out!!

Des D Mel.. i can say that the presentation is very good. The Best of the best.. think if Desmond sees this.. he's sure to be very happy... he's very professional.. and he can give you ideas of how to go about doing the event.. and he knows what he is doing.. can also can do magic tricks ala David Blane style.. not bad..

For me, i will choose Des D Mel.. as i have already worked with ECS therefore i know where is their standard.. whereas for Des D Mel, i have not worked with them.. if they can perform will doing out D&D.. they are sure to have a couple of jobs lined up for them!! I can take our D&D to test out new Event Companies without having to worry about how the members feel.. also dun need to hear too many negative comments...

well that's only from my point of view... dunno how the rest of the committee feels.. i feel kinda bad for squeezing the Event Companies until they cannot breathe le.. but sometimes that's how you do business.. like wat Desmond says.. You strach my back i'll strach yours... but sometimes cannot take full advantage of people... if that's the limit of what they can offer dun keep stressing them.. if not it'll be very hard for my department to call and ask them for quotations le... the event company also dun want to take our business ar... cos they earn like very marginal...

had a small discussion with some colleagues.. reached a conclusion of 'someone'... dun wanna say anymore.. juz in case 'someone' stumbles onto my blog and reads.. den everyone will get into trouble and will be very hasd to work with one another... think i need to come out with some code names where the people i trust will know who is it.. i shall go think of some names to give my friends.. muahhahaa... =)

Dinner was a yummy affair... there was a total of 6 of us... Me, Serene, Michelle, Koh, Dal n Boss.. it was a bit too much le... the mala soup was super duper hot.. cannot take it.. nose start to leak again... had loads and loads of food.. nice nice...

after dinner went to Bugis to play some Archard games.. played the Mario Brother's Go Kart... muhahahaha... so fun.... so cute~!!!! heehee.. i like the mushroom headed guy... everytime i use him i seem to be winning.. muhahaha...

took a bus home from Bugis.. dun want to take MRT back cos so late le.. i know that Daddy is sleeping le.. even though he says he's not... cannot always make him come n fetch me from the MRT Station de... must let him rest...

tomorrow going to Mdm Jennifer's mother? father's? wake... not very sure which is it.. 2 weeks ago head that he/she was in the ICU... sometimes i think of death as the better alternative.. rather den lying in the bed suffering.. i would rather die... easier for me and my family members.. cos the hospital bill is not going to be cheap... 2nd thing it's less painful...

Okie.. i think i shall stop here.. willl try to update more since now i have no excuse that the computer is not in my room... of cos.. heehee.. i always can say that the internet connection is not working.. muahhahaha.. tired tired le.. time to go sleep.....

nitey niteZ...

Depressing Mood

i'm still coughing like nobody's business.. i currently feeling kinda depressed.. juz finshed my marketing exam... didn't do well for my core module marketing exam, might have to go through the boring lectrer's lesson again.. on the brighter side. at least i have mel there... one thing which i'm worrying about is how much is the sub paper... if it's a thousand plus.. den i have problems.. but i dun wan dad to pay for me. dun want him to worry about money... have to start saving money for my module already... think i'm going to get into depression soon...

my lappie is giving me problems.. not really problems but more like irritating me.. something about the USB malfunction.. damn irritating.. might have to call Dell... think i'll bring my lappie down to office tomorrow... also thinking of configuring my lappy's outlook express to my office email... den at least i dun have to borther serene to help me check...

was thinking of quiting my job again.. but no job how to get money.. haiz.. sometimes i wonder why do i put myself though all this. is this worth it? worth all the suffering? i've come to the stage in life whereby i'm sick n tired of everything i do...

at least he has her.. i'm nutting to him.. i dun have any status with him.. i'm juz something whereby he can make use of.. she can run to him but can i? i can't... i'm not accepted... i'm juz an extra.. a 3rd party.. i've even thought of giving him up.. but i always fail to do so.. i know i'll hurt myself more with each passing day.. but i can't help it.. i'm falling deeper.. i want to stop.. but it's so hard...

sicky sicky Me

I'm super sick... down with a very very very bad flu n cough... i also made a lot of 'wan tons'... can last for 1 whole week for breakfast, lunch n dinner... muhahahaha...

i also think that i'm infecting alot of people... especially my classmates... you guys are darlings to tolerate my constant sneezing, coughing n blowing of my nose...

I could feel that i was beginning to be sick on Thursday nite after my Tourism & Hospitality exam.. when i was about to sleep.. i could already feel the bacteria fighting in my throat...

On Friday, when i went to work.. i was already sneezing and blowing my nose... i also could feel that i was having loads n loads of phlegm's in my throat n nose... the feeling was terrible... OMG.. also had meetings with the Event Companies for our D&D... brought in 1 box of tissue to use.. that was how bad my nose was..

after work... i left at about almost 5.30pm.. was suppose to leave at 5pm.. but i was waiting for Michelle to come for the meeting.. she's another personal from another event company which i called to give us a quotation as well as a proposal... total i asked for 4 Event Companies to gimme their proposal... which also reminds me that i have to inform them that the date has changed from the 23/24 May to somewhere in April... will have to inform them on Wed. Cos i will be taking an MC tomorrow to rest b4 my last and final bridging exam!!!

okok.. continue from where i left from work.. i took 502 down to Orchard... was feeling dizzy... feeling not very good already... once i got off the bus at Orchard... i called my mom to tell her that i'm going home n not going for class... had fever by the time i reached home.. once i reached back i fell asleep under my blanket..

next day i reached class at 10am... too tired.. too lazy to wake up so early... super shacked out after school... nose was leaking... throat was hurting.. can't taste anything... everything i eat is blend... finish class early... went shopping with KG and Mel... Went to Poh Kim and bought a VCD.. Gigolo Wannbe... Not that Funnie... Not that nice.. SoSo only.. den after that pei Mel to G2000 to get a jacket.. not bad.. quite a good deal.. from $100+ he only paid $59.90.. when he was trying out the jacket.. there was a guy there who dunno bought wat 2 months ago and now wanted to change the size.. he was like quite rude to the sales girl loh... i overheard (surprisingly with my stuffed ears) heard him tell the sales girl that it's your shop problem.. and that he bought that shirt/pants 2 months ago when it's not on sale... But from my point of view, i do not think that it's the shop's problem liao.. cos common sense.. on the receipt it clearly states that for Exchange of items it'sm within 7 days loh... 2 months = to 7 days meh?? Of cos No right? den somemore.. he never bring the receipt.. i see the guys face liao i wanna slap him le.. he got that type of face whereby you juz wanna slap him de... that guy is either trying to pull a fast one on the store or making life difficult for the sales girl.. somemore.. the sales girl already told him that they don't have that stock in the store le... and the guy kept insisting that she check for him if there are in the other outlets.. think the sales girl also LL got to help him check... some people are so full of shit... that's the ugly side of Singaporeans.... sad to say...

took bus after school instead of taking mrt... cos dad went climbing in Mt. Ophir again.. he did not bring back the car...he left it in the office... by the time i got home i was totally shacked out again... nose was sore... sore from blowing with all the tissues...

Today it's the same thing again... only difference was that Mel's dad gave me a lift home... so kind of him... was trying not to cough in the car.. cos i know once i start i can't stop... den my cough is not those light and gentle cough.. it's those monstrous type of cough de.. very terrible de.. can cough until my sides all pain...

came home n rest somemore... daddy came back from his climbing... bought me fish noodle soup.. still cannot taste anything... daddy told me not to go to work tomorrow.. he wants me to see the doctor and stay at home to rest.. get well and go for my exam on Tues... he told me to call My boss or Dal and when i talk to them cough like mad... muhahaha... =D my daddy so funnie...

think i'll heed his advice... gotta go rest now... *sniff sniff*

as Busy as a Bumble Bee

It has been a while since my last post...

have been too bz and too tired to do any postings...

have not recovered since new year's eve...

have started school again... and complained big time.. cos my school changed the timing of my class from 7pm to 6.30pm... WTF man.. i finished work at 6.30pm leh... after writing in to feedback.. they told me that they intended to make all classes at 6.30pm.. for consistancy... it's like the lamest reason that i'm heard so far...

at the end of my Business Law module, from wat i heard.. my classmates all want the timing back to 7pm.. which is more fair to us. not everyone finishes at 5.30pm... in the end.. the School also LAn Lan.. changed back the timing.. muhahahaha...

classes are like crash courses.. very intensive... worst still.. the bloody school is not very sure if we start our core modules in March or May.. omg...

anyway... on the brighter side, i recieved my new 'toy'.. heehee.. so happy.. finally can watch movies in my own room le.. but i encountered an error... think if it happen again.. i'll call Dell...

Attitude?? Yup... Loads of it

Do i have an attitude problem?

Maybe... sometimes... yah.. i do admit.. i DO have an attitude problem...

can't i help my colleague wrap a present? i dun like the tone of your voice. it's like i want to help my colleague...can't i? you say my face like not happy? maybe cos i'm concentrating on wrapping..

i can't take some of your jokes. it's not funnie. i dun find it funnie.

you are right. i'm not fit to be with you.

i don't really care for my the other half. i need someone who i can be dependent on, who knows how to take care of himself, who does not need me to talk to him every other night (maybe cos i see you everyday)... i'm a person who gets bored of things easily... and a person who is selfish...

think it's enough reasons that we are not together.

Long Absence

it's a bloody long time since my last post.. my last post was rather angry... now... my mood is better... my parents left for NZ for 10 days and are now back...

during that time.. it was pure joy... no nagging... no constant talking... and i drove everyday to work... it was such a bliss.. the feeling was like as if.. i've moved out into my own apartment.. and have my own car... i have grown more confident on the roads.. especially peak period...

i finished up my OD assignments... so stressful... handed up on the 17 Nov.. and went to do manicure.. on that day i was also panicking cos i *ahem* damaged the car the day before.. went to source for a workshop to repair the car with Miker.. wat can i do without him!!! hahah... total damaged spent to repair.. $150.... heart pain.. cos money fly... but no choice as my parents was coming back on the 21 Nov...

on the 18.. went down to dbl O... no not to have fun but to work.. had a Cupid's nite.. this time it was better den momo.. like more people.. but it was confirm more guys den girls.. hahaha... went home after the event... it was like 10pm... had to go home cos i was driving.. + i had a group meeting the next day...

19th Nov... woke up... watched tv... packed my bag.. and went to liang court mac for my group meeting... meeting didn't last that long.. so me, yan yan, xiao fu n jerlyn went to Marina Sq... i drove there... walked about... saw my neighbour Calvin with his gf... didn't say hi.. haha... i didn't buy anything.. nothing to buy.. at about 6... we all went back... jerlyn left earlier... actually it was right after we got to MS and went to the ladies.. haha.. went home n slacked the whole day...

on the 20th i drove to the airport... and waited for them.. took a very slow drive... thought i was slow.. but the car in front of me was slower... and i got irritated... once i reached the airport.. was feeling hungry.. cos didn't eat anything for dinner yet.. so after i confirmed their flight timing again.. i went to try the popeye chicken... n mash potato... didn't try their chicken.. but tried their chicken fillet burger... i like the mash potato... the burger not too bad la.. brought a book to read... read and eat at the same time.. after that went down to the arrival hall and waited for them...

took them a long time to come out... my mother lost her hand held poker machine on the plane so she went to make a report.. they didn't see me until i walked up to them... didn't want to talk to my mother yet... still kinda pissed with her.. but she talked to me.. so had to answer her.. dad drove home.. didn't notice anything about the car... of cos i didn't tell him.. i'm not STUPID... was too tired to drive.. reached home about 2.30... fell asleep once my head touched the pillow...

was on MC on wed.. was not feeling too good... den on thurs went to Costa Sands for some team building workshop... we have to do something for the KTV and bistro... a bit dumb... i'm not interested.. i have a lot of things on hand to do... my studies i pushed aside to attend the course and now i have to endure all the stuff for KTV and bistro... haiz... boh eng ar...

very tired on wed.. took my bathe.. den went to sleep at 8.30pm.. all the way until the next morning when i had to wake up for work... so shioke... 1st time for so long i had such a wonderful sleep.. was mentally tired...

on fri.. went to my new campus at cuppage... dun really like the place.. not as convenient as IP... still got to walk from the MRT station.. and have to pay ERP... so ex leh... it was my last presentation for this term... marketing... now the final leap is my exams... which is next month...

this is all for now... i'm tired of typing already..

BAD MOOD

it's a very bad start of the day for me...

1st.. i forgot to bring my hp until i reach the bus stop. didn't want to go back and take it cos if i did, she will blow her top. and will most proberly get pissed with me for being late and slow and how i should wake up earlier and sleep earlier too.. have heard all of her bloody naggins to actually know which ones she is going to use..

2nd... got told off of by her by not asking nicely when i wanted to borrow her hp.. mind you... i did ask nicely.. in a very nice way.. May i borrow your hp? and surpise surpise she jumped to conclusion and started attacking me verbly. telling me:" NO. I WILL NOT LEND IT TO YOU SO THAT YOU CAN ASK YOUR FATHER TO GO BACK HOME N COLELACT YOUR HP FOR YOU. HE HAS A VISTOR AND HE WILL NOT GO BACK N COLLECT YOUR HP FOR YOU"..

oh by the way... i did not have any FUCKING intention of asking my dad to go home and collect my HP for me.. All i wanted to do was to sms him to tell him i forgot to bring my HP.

So pissed off with her.. worst thing was she can tell me that i did not ask her in a nice manner. and when i talk to my frens i can talk to them nicly.. well excuse me. i did ask u nicely and she attacked me... who would blame me for changing my tone.. i was already in a bad mood after she told me that she thought that i was going to ask my father to get my phone for me. Thought is a very kind word to use for the way how she spoke to me was very harsh.

i told her off. if i could have PUNCHED her i would have. i told her DO NOT ASSUME THAT I WAS GOING TO CALL MY FATHER TO ASK ME TO HELP ME TAKE MY PHONE. DO NOT ASSUME THAT HE CAME ALL THE WAY HOME TO TAKE MY HP THE LAST TIME JUST BECAUSE YOU THOUGHT THAT HE DID NOT HAVE ANYTHING TO DO. DO NOT ASSUME!!!!!! LASTLY I DID ASK YOU NICELY BUT YOU ASSUMED THAT I WAS GOING TO CALL HIM, GET YOUR FACTS RIGHT BEFORE YOU START TO ACCUSE ME!!!!!

so pissed with her. took the same bus but did not seat with her. took my own cab. caould not be borthered with her.

fucking jam at AYE costed me $20.. was fucking late for 20 mins.. i'm still pissed..

DO NOT PROVOKE ME. I"M NOT IN A GOOD MOOD.

Dumb thing

i juz remembered something stupid which i did on Tues... Had a group meeting at Liang Court Mac to go our case study... Jerlyn n Kel was there too.. Can't seem to log on to the net.. 3 of us was wondering how to log on.. den i called Mr Calvin Low..

*Ring Ring*

Me thinking: Ring tone like funnie leh...

Calvin Low (CL): harlow?

Me: You overseas ar?

CL: Ya, in BKK. What's up?

Me: Oh, nutting much lah.. juz wanted to ask you how to log on to the internet at Mac..

CL: ..... =_=" like tat loh.. wireless loh..

Me: okie.. it's on.. but does not seem to work.. nvm.. i go ask the Mac guy.. BYEeee

CL: Okie... Bye..

asked him a dumb question when he's in BKK.. hahahha... Jerlyn was laughing... Cal's so nice.. he still can talk to me and answer my dumb question.. hahaha... *hugZ*

~Foul MOOD~

i dunno why.. but some ASSHOLES really pisses me off... they dun think that they are irritating but THEY ARE TO ME!!!

OMFG... dun reply their msn also still can ask me later on in the night.. y this afternoon u never reply me? like how am i?? can't he see my nick?? Semi-flu <--- THIS IS HOW I AM... damn it.. no brains no eyes.. i wonder how he function... ARGH....

i'm in a foul mood again... stressed.. i got datelines.. many datelines... i got Mid-term exams.. i got quizzes... i got presentations... i got case studies to do... i got events to run... *short temper* i have no life anymore.. it's work... study... projects... assignments... hardly got time to blog too.. so sad... no time for movies again...

Drove to Sembawang again.. hate it when you become a backseat driver... i know it's not funnie.. i laugh at things not because it's FUNNIE.. but rather because i want to destress.. i hope you can understand that it's very frustrating when you have someone (NOT yr driving instructor) sitting beside you and starts to tell you what you have to do. Giving directions is fine with me. But telling me how to drive... pls SHUT UP ALREADY!!!!! i'm controlling myself from SCREAMing YELLing or SHOUTing to show you how frustrated i am. you dun feel my frustrations you dun understand. You won't understand until you get yr own driving licence and DRIVE with someone telling you wat to do.

Also another point. You like people to do things your way. Please remember that you can't force people to do things the way u like. It's going to be the situation like during the Golf Tournament with the Calculations on the excel sheet. I have my way of doing things, you have yours. Give your opinions, if i or anyone else wants to follow, we will follow. Do not force.

i'm in a rather short temper mood and i've got LOADS of attitude to show. If you dun like it, THAT YOUR PROBLEM. Dun talk to me, it's fine with me.

Jumble of words

life to me now feels very stressed up... i think i got white hair... going to have more white hair soon... classes are mentally demanding... i'm tired.. very tired.. mentally tired.. i want to quit my job and work part time somewhere else.. but won't do it now.. cos it's like unfair to the others... maybe i'll tender in July when things are not so bz... due to NDP...

i really need a good break... tons of things have happened... both good and bad.. made new frens... frens getting married/ROM...

my brain is like processing things slower though.. strange.. it should be faster... think it's time for me to stay at home n hide... sleep... i need sleep...

pampered myself yesterday after class.. was to meet Uncle Miker.. but the uncle overslept and i went home instead... but before that i bought myself a book.. have not bought books to read leisurely for a long time already.. i bought "The Devil Wears Prada"... i know the movie came out sometime ago... but i didn't catch it.. cos was too tired and busy to watch movies.. have not watch a movie for sometime now.. the last i watched was The Banquet... Maybe i'll catch the show D.O.A.. seems interesting..

i'm taking things a day at a time.. my brain can only process things for only 2 days.. today and the next day... the day after that i won't know whats going on.. so need my frends to remind me... hahah.. i'm getting forgetful...

there's a lot of things to say... but so little time.. when i remember wat i want to say i'll pen it down here.. i'm too lazy for now.. =)

Preparing for Annual Golf

i'm here in the office at 11:28pm.. didn't go to class today.. as i was in SCC (Sembawang Country Club) preparing for our Annual Golf Tournament tomorrow.. i was there from this after noon about 12+ till almost 10pm?

Was packing up the goodie bags.. it's like wat MWO Micheal Tan says... Mini NDP.. haha.. after packing.. den we went for lunch.. den the golf t-shirts and the lucky draw prizes came...

after lunch it was packing the t-shirts.. the sizes big big big problem... the shirts sizes like a bit tat too small... it's like ladies cutting... for me no problem... haha.. but for the guys.. some problem.. anyway.. can't be bothered too much..

i'm getting sick... nose starts to run liao.. the haze was bad.. gives me a very eerie feeling.. especially when on the way from from SCC to the club.. road cannot see very far...

i dunno how i going to wake up... feel like sleeping in the office... dun wanna go home... i could juz sleep here... damn tired le.. if i go home.. i confirm will drop n koonZ...

think i going to have my bathe in the club after this...

Ciao..

Moi Another BitCh...

i'm suppose to do this like on sun or mon... but i was a little tad LAZY... muhahahahahhaha...

ERNEST IS DA BITCH~!!!!!

and he admits it too.... Cool huh... hahhaa... *winkZ*

typo error lah..

okok.. typo... it's not Xi Gou but Xi Yi...

Brain not working lah... pai seh ar... muhahahaha

IdiotS

my mom is not too happy with my cousin... he asked her a stupid thing... which pissed her off... she's not attending his wedding.. and she doesn't care...

my cousin asked my mom if she wanted him to call her 'Si Gou' which means 4th aunty in teochew or Aunty Helen... DUMBEST QUESTION of the Century~! Hello...u have been calling my mother 'Si Gou' since the day he was able to speak loh... why the change?? it's just dumb loh...

my mom says he wants to be Ang More Pai (Be like a White Man)... like come on... i know your sister married an American... but it doesn't make you a white guy loh.. be true to your roots can not.. OMG... nono.. i should say OMFG... such idiots.....

Sunday

i juz recieved a complain that my last post was like on 19 of Sept... okok... must do service recovery... lol... i blog i blog...

wat have i been up too since my last entry?? Well... i was working n working n working... den studying and studying and studying... + for the past 2 weekends (Sat) i was attending Wedding dinners.. 30th Sept was Jennifer 妈妈's daughter's wedding.. den 1 week after that.. on the 7th of Oct was Vanessa's wedding.. as in Vanessa my colleague not my Sec sch classmate...

ya... i think i really need to go exercise le.. go do some laps in the pool... or go play badminton.. needa sweat it out.. all i do is eat n eat.. omg omg omg.. need to go bladding.. not NEED... it's MUST go... fat fat fat fat fat..... haiz......

i went to 3 different types of cafe today... 1st cafe.. Book Cafe near Gallery Hotel.. it's a nice quiet cafe.. good place to chill out.. they have books, newspapers, magZ for ya to read as well as travel guides.. hence the name Book cafe.. it's kinda pricy though.. but the chinken wings are not bad.. i like the ice honey lemon tea.. nice... heehee.. went there today to do assignements.. not much done though.. think everyone was like not in the mood to think... lol...

Me, 小 fu & Jerlyn @ Book Cafe

after trying to do the assignments.. me, Fu n Yan went down to clark Quay to take pics.. snapping pics along MS... hahah.. trying to take pics with the MS road sign.. saw Warrant Eddie with wifey.. haha.. thought the car looked familar.. including the car driving it.. haha.. they recgonised me as well though.. haha.. waved at me.. *grinZ* Eddie's wifey was like kinda shock to see me like tat.. hahaha... took pics of O bar in the morning..

MS Sign

Very seldom u see O Bar n DBL O so bright.. heehee

MOS

Crazy Horse

PUMA @ Clark Quay

after that 3 of us went to Minds Cafe in Boat Quay... met Alleyboy at boat quay.. he was having an assignement meeting also.. jo played board games n luffing like mad.. played crazy games.. hahha.. den Miker came n joined us.. intro Miker to Xiao Fu.. after playing games to relax ourselves.. we went to Minds Cafe... not bad.. went there with Marco, Aud, Jac... i dun remember who else lah.. cos so long ago.. ya.. so we played all sorts of game... and to my SURPRISE... of all the people i did not expect to see Yao Zhong there... Yao Zhong is Jolene's Cuzzie.. he didn't see me n i did not see him... until he went to pee.. den as he was coming back.. i was like hey... hahah..

after the Minds Cafe, Miker drove us to Adelphi to get Kit's car.. i accompanied Kit den we followed Miker to the HKG cafe over at Tiong Bahru... not as good as my house here de.. the service like cock up lo... things which we ordered never come.. if not missing something.. eg. my French toast with ice cream.. it was missing my ice cream.. or they give something which we never order... it's like CMI... also they dun have like lite bites... which my place here the HKG cafe have...

after that Miker send me home b4 going to the temple at loyang there.. talk to him.. like a big brother.. lol... good talk with him la.. =) okie.. i think it's time to stop... tired liao.. *yawnZ*

outlook on life...

I'm tired.. really tired... i want to go on a LONG LONG LONG break... i dun feel like waking up anymore.. my outlook on life is... not as good as before...

i'm not 100% me yet... maybe abt 65%... i might be kidding my own self.. it's unbelievable that i've recovered more den 50%... my heart's been shattered and slowly glued back with the love of my friends.. the encouragement they gave... the naggings... the brain washing... lol.. i really appreciate all of it.. i know sometimes i cannot express how i feel.. especially when face to face... i can't say the words which i want to say out.. i dun know why it's so hard... maybe it's because.. once you've said something you can't take it back..

i might be in denial... i'm trying hard to distance myself from him... i know it's over.. over between us... i can see the pain in his eyes on fri when he send me back.. It's time to stop any more feelings...

I know you have been reading my blog.. i juz want to tell you to go back to her.. treat her well.. pamper her.. love her... and forget about me.. it's impossible between us..

i've been showing alot of attitude recently.. might be because i hate it when u compare me and her.. like can i cook wat she can cook.. or can i tolerate you as well as she can? I can tell you... I can do all that... maybe not as good as she can.. why should i prove myself to you? it's not necessary for me to show you.. why should I? I'm not your GF.. you're not my BF... i'm not yours anymore.. it's harsh to say this.. but it's the fact.. you taught me alot of things.. and i'll treasure all of the memories that you've given me... but i have to wake up and face the reality..

treat me as a fren... not as a lover..

I shattered my Own Heart

liking him was not wrong... falling in love with him was.. i've made the ultimate choice.. to give up the person i like.. i hurt myself again n again.. i dun wan him to choose... it's a selfish decision.. i made his mind up for him.. i rather the person to be hurt is me den the other party who was with him for the past 6 years.. Who can understand him... know what he wants... know what he's thinking.. wat he deserves... can i? i dun think i can.. i can never be a person like that..

i wished i was a stronger person... someone whose emotions will not show.. but i can't.. i know ppl around me can feel what i'm feeling.. i wish i can luff happily when i'm down... but i can't... it's not me.. i can smile.. but i can't luff... not just yet.. i'm very true to my stars... hard on the outside... soft on the inside.. once my heart breaks.. i dunno how long will it take to heal...

i wanna thank him for bringing the attention of my rosary which was hanging on my cupboard... i held on to it last night.. when i tried to sleep.. gasp it tightly in my hand.. it gave me a sense of calm.. no bad dreams..

i wished i could be more like him.. show no emotions.. no pain... put on a brave front... but i'll be lying to myself... it's not me...

i want to thank you for all the little things you did for me.. it means a lot.. no matter how small the gesture was... i'm sorry for all the things i did which upsets you.. i'm sorry for crying when you told me to stop.. i'm sorry fot not having the courage to continue loving you..

Sch... work... play... = Life

okie.. i think the last time i updated my blog was like a week ago... i've been very bz... due to the fact that my Company's AGM was on Sat.. and getting ready for the event... + my sch has finally started...

All i can say is.. i'm HAPPY... Happy studying... Happier den when i was at ACPE.. even though my classes is like almost every day of the week... i'm still happy... i'm happy at this pace of learning.. i'm still adepting to all my class and working at the same time..

so far.. i've no complains about the lecturers... My Consumer Behaviour (CB) & Organisation Management & Development (OMD) classes are interesting... OMD classes is like doing activities.. and the Lecturer is kinda suaning but also kinda funnie la.. he cannot stand Kit.. haha.. whom the lecturer calls BS king.. muhaha... CB classes is fun.. cos the lecturer knows how to grab the attention of our tired minds.. and even if u feel like peeing.. u won't wanna go n pee.. cos it's juz that interesting~!!!!

I'm taking accounting.. cos it's one of the core modules which i have to pass in this course.. i can understand better now den it Shatec.. at least i can now balance the balance sheet.. heehee... even if the final figure is wrong.. heehee.. but sometimes damn confusing on where u wanna put the figures and if u should - or +... Accounts class is big.... 60 pax in 1 room... omg.. terrible.. Kel has complained to Adeline Bong abt it.. DTM bad habits.. muhahaha.. complaining... heehee..

my life is now filled up with sch... work... not much time for playing anymore as well as blogging.. unless blog at work.. which is like very seldom lah.. i'm surprised at myself though.. cos this whole weekend.. fri to sun (evening) i didn't log on to MSN at all.. i'm juz too tired.. wanted to log on juz now after i got home after class... but the calling of my bed was stronger... heehee... took a cab home today... i wanted to be a good girl but den the rain got heavier while i was at the bus stop waiting for my bus... so i called for a cab... my excuse was i never bring any umbrella... but also i was tired... didn't expect it to POUR like that~!!! terrible...

okie.. enough of my excuses... it's time to hit my bed.. and SLEEP... 2molo or rather today.. need to work again... i've got no weekend.... *sobZ* but i enjoyed my short short weekend... it's been rather sweet and enjoyable... =)